R-18 scenes ahead (I warned you)
I was raped. I was violated.
It hunts me even when in deep sleep. Ni minsan sa buhay ko, sa kabila ng mga sakit at panghuhusga mula sa ibang tao o sa mismong pamilya ko, hindi ko kailanman naisip na posibleng may mas sasakit pa sa mga pinagdaanan ko. I'm still hoping that I'm only dreaming, that it was all just a bad dream. Na ilang minuto nalang ay magigising na ako dahil hindi ko deserve ito.
And I did wake up but it's just the same as what was in the bad dream I hoped for.
"Are you hungry?"
I woke up the next day feeling dizzy and sorrowful. I am so sore.
The cozy ceiling welcomed my sight as I opened both of my eyes. I tried to move only to feel the excruciating pain all over my body, especially the bottom part.
"Legacy..."
My body automatically shivered. Unti-unti kong ginalaw ang katawan ko upang makasandal sa headboard. The large cold hands covered my waist and my body immediately reacted.
His weight caused too much that the bed slightly crumpled when he moved a bit to reach me. Pati ang kumot na nakapulupot sa katawan ko ay bahagyang nahila nang madaganan niya ito.
"Does your body hurts?"
I clenched my jaw and bravely looked at him. Eager to voice out my pains he inflected and determined to cast anger. Pero mas pinili kong itikom nalang ang bibig.
Sa tindi ng sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon ay wala na ring silbi iyon. Kahit na saktan ko siya physically ay wala paring panama iyon sa sakit na binigay niya sa akin.
I crouched, holding the side table for assistance, sinubukang iapak ang nanginginig na paa sa malamig na sahig. Naramdaman ko agad ang paggalaw ng taong nasa likod ko. He held my waist and gently pulled me back to bed.
"You can't go." he firmly said while caressing my hair,
I looked away. He sighed.
"I know you're still sore. Hindi kita hahayaang lumabas sa silid na ito na may masakit sayo."
Pakiramdam ko ay nilamon ako ng buong kadiliman dahil sa narinig. Sa sobrang galit at sakit ay natawa ako. I laughed without any humor until my voice starting to shuttered and break.
Talaga? Hindi niya ako hahayaan na umalis hanggang sa may masakit pa sakin? So he's going to keep me here for eternity? Dahil hindi na kailanman maaalis pa ang sakit sa buo kong pagkatao. Hinding hindi na niya ako ulit mabubuo.
"You broke me... all of me..."
Tears pooled in sides of my eyes, nanginig ako sa galit, takot, at hinagpis.
In a hard and almost a flashed move, I slapped his face so hard that I think my hand will leave a very bad mark. Namanhid ang palad ko kasabay nang pagkahulog ng bawat butil ng luha.
His jaw clenched and he looks like he's calming himself. He sighed. "I need to wash you up."
Lumayo ako sa kanya at pinilit ang sariling tumayo. Napaigik pa ako ng maramdaman ang sakit sa ibabang bahagi ng katawan pero ipinagsawalang bahala ko na lamang iyon, basta makalayo lang sa kanya at makaalis.
"You can't go... yet. We still need to talk."
He stood up and looked at me intently.
"Let's wash you up." ulit niya,
Umatras ako nang humakbang siya papalapit.
"Legacy, don't make this hard for the both of us."
His manly, diabolical expression can decipher all of his deeds' potential. The way he flexed his jaw only added to the danger, and his piercing gray eyes were commanding and captivating.
