Yeh Dooriyan: Book I

~•Prologue•~

Dear Abhi,

I know I have hurt you a lot. Tilak ki raat se lekr ab tak jo kuch bhi hua, un sb ke liye I am very very sorry. I broke your heart by not speaking on the day of Tilak and then denying in front of your family. I am sorry.

I am a coward Abhi. I really am! Mujhe samjh hi nahi aa raha kuch bhi. Mujhme to ye sb baaten tumhe face to face kehne ki himmat bhi nahi hai so I am writing you this letter. I don't know where to start from so I'll start from the beginning.

The mask festival where we met- it was special! We were special. Sirf tumhe hi vo connection feel nahi hua tha, mujhe bhi hua tha. Haan mai thodi slow hoon, mujhe samjh nahi aya pr accha laga tumse milkr. Ek alag si vibe thi. Pyaar tha ya nahi- sach kahun toh mai sure nahi thi tb. If I could have had my way- toh mai tumhari dost banna chahti. Hum dono ko samjhne ka waqt chahti. Pr shyd kismat thodi fast forward mode pr chali gayi.

I wish tumne mujhse khulkr poocha hota pr jb mujhe pta chala humare rishte ki baat chal rahi hai and tum mere liye rishta lekr aaye ho. I was the happiest I had been in all these years lekin vo khushi mujhe 5 minute se zyada naseeb nahi hui. Aru ne kaha rishta uske liye hai. Mai confuse ho gayi. Maine socha ki tumne kabhi khulkr confess toh kiya nahi kabhi bhi, maybe I read too much. Mai tumhare pyaar ko tumhari politeness smjh baithi. I am sorry. Mujhe tumse baat krni chahiye thi. I really should have.

Phir tilak ka din. I can never forgive myself for hurting you so much. Believe me tumhara ek ek ansu mujhe bhi chubha tha. Vo ansu jo beh nahi paye pr tumhari ankho me dard ki tarah baithe they- unhone mujhe bohot hurt kiya. Pr mai samjh nahi paa rahi thi. Tumhe mana nahi kr skti thi aur haan bolkr apni behen ka dil nahi thodna chahti thi. Mujhe chup rehna sahi laga. Shyd wahi meri bhool thi.

Shyd time pr baat na kaho toh time dubara asani se mauka nahi deta. Halat aise bante chale gaye ki mai confess nahi kr payi. Aru ka vo accident and ghar me sabke conflicting thoughts. Aru tumse pyaar krti hai Abhi. Shyd. Pata nahi. Lekin usne kahan ki vo hume saath dekhr kabhi khush nahi reh payegi aur meri behen ko dukh me dekhr mai kaise khush reh lungi? Yeh baat mai tumse personally krna chahti thi pr jb mauka mila toh tum mujhe directly tumhare ghar le gaye, unke samne mai confess nahi kr payi...I am sorry for turning you down like that. I really am.

Pr iska mtlb ye nahi hai ki mai tumhe mana kr rahi hoon ya Aru se shaadi krne ke liye force kr rahi hoon. Rishte to pyaar se bante hai na Abhi. Mai tumse pyaar krti hoon. I LOVE YOU. I really do. I have realised this. Tumhare jitni bold nahi hoon aur bohot der se realise kiya maine but these are my true feelings. Mai waqt chahti hoon bs. Thoda waqt. Apne liye, humare liye...meri behen ke liye.

Tilak ka confusion jis bhi reason se hua ho, vo bhi hurt hui hai. Mere gharwale toh aaj bhi humara rishta kr denge pr vo ye nahi soch rahe ki isse Arohi kitna hurt ho jayegi. Ek baar vo thoda sambhal jaye, iss baat se move on kr jaye....Tb hum baat karenge. Abhi uss baat ko ek mahina bhi nahi hua hai, Usse thoda waqt chahiye Abhi. I hope you understand...

Ye mai chahti hoon pr tumhare saath koi zabardasti nahi hai. I know it is not fair to demand and expect ki samne wala bhi agree hi kare. You can deny. You have all the right to but I hope you make me the happiest girl alive and accept this.

Wait for me Abhi?

Yours,

Akshu

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Akshara Goenka had realised her feeling for Abhimanyu. She loved him to bits but her love for his sister and the vow she made to always stand by her didn't let her confess openly. She did not want to hurt Arohi by her confession. She was okay with sacrificing her love for her if Abhimanyu felt something for Arohi as well.