DazaixChuuya one shots (suokoku)

Tears

Hoiiii

I stand for Chuuya angst

Chuuya pov:

Sitting alone in your is fun. Drinking wine once again is fun. But what isn't fun is...

Having the only real person in your life leave

So what if I like to dwell on the past, Dazai left 4 years ago, and I'm still stuck up about it. It not my fault, he promised to stay with me. But no

Everyone leaves

The sheep

Dazai

Myself

Everything leaves...

The only thing that won't leave is the scars on my body, the wine I'm drinking, and lastly my mind.

I took another sip of the wine, I could care less about the glass right now. All I wanted to do was get black out drunk for the 6th time this week, it was only Thursday...

I got up for the first time in hours, it was raining, and I liked taking showers when it rains. Also with as little light as possible.

But enough so I can see myself and everything.

But I was hoping to take a shower so I could get clean, nah I just sat there. Sitting there being lazy. Pathetic.

Dumb
Lazy
Pathetic
Selfish
Annoying
Toxic
A bad person
Monster

All of these fit me.
For no reason at all.

Why do people like me? I have shitty anger issues, shitty personality. I hate myself for it.

I didn't care that Dazai left.
I didn't care that Dazai left.
I would never care that Dazai left.
BUT HE LEFT ME! ME I hate him I hate him I hate him I hate him I hate him.

But I can't but also help but love him...He is so tall, good kisser. He has pretty brunette hair. He may be broken but he is amazing....

I slid down the wall a little more, I was oh most out of wine. And I'm not even black out drunk yet.

"Tch"

I took the last few sips of the alcohol that was left, he placed it on the floor, falling to the ground (he is in the tub),
I'm so pathetic, this is why no one wants me. I should really just end my life. It's not like anyone wants me.

A short one my apologies and Dazai isn't even in this one😭