A Siriusly Bad Fight

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Author: livlovesmoony
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Remus POV

"Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you!" Sirius yelled at me, crying as he slid down the wall.

"Sirius, you need to fucking calm down" I said furiously. Whilst Sirius was sat on the floor crying, I  started pacing the room annoyed. Sirius has just given up with words and is sitting on the floor crying. I felt a pang of guilt but Sirius was being fucking ridiculous.

"I'll be in the living room, if you want to fix this come and find me. I dont want to go to sleep fighting please." I said and waited til I saw Sirius nod, before leaving the room.

Sirius' POV

Why? Why do I always mess shit up? Why can't I be perfect? Like Regulus? I'm such a fucking burden. Always messing shit up.

Back to Remus' POV

Once I left the room I went to the couch, sat down and out my head in my hands. Sirius had called me a monster. He didn't mean it. I know he didn't. He was just joking and I took it out of proportion. It wasn't even a werewolf joke. He was joking that I was a chocolate monster. Like the Cookie Monster but chocolate. I definitely took this way out of proportion. Merlin, I hope Sirius can forgive me. I said he was just like his family. He's not. He's never been. He never will be. But I opened my big mouth and that's what came out. Fuck me.

After a few minutes I go back upstairs and knock on the door. I can hear Sirius sniffling through it. It felt like a dagger through my heart knowing that I did that to him. "Hey Sirius? Do you want any food?" After a few tries with no answer I opened the door. "Sirius?" I called. "Yes?" He asked shakily. He was in the bathroom. "Do you want any food?" I asked "oh! Uh, no-no thanks." He said, I frowned at that. He sounded- weird. Like he was in pain. I open my mouth to say something then i suddenly smell blood. I could feel the color drain from my face.

Sirius' POV

Merlin. Why do I always fuck shit up. As I hear the bedroom door close and footsteps going down the stairs I pull myself up and head to the bathroom. I go into the bathroom and turn the shower on. If Remus heard the shower then he won't come in. I step into the shower, getting my clothes soaked and grab Remus' razor. I broke apart the razor and got the blade out.

I step out of the shower and sit on the little rug that keeps the titles from getting wet. I hesitate putting the blade to my arm. I've been clean for a good 4 1/2 months. I was proud of myself. Remus was proud of me. That made me happiest, the fact that he was proud. But I hurt him. So I deserve to be hurt too.

I pull the blade across my wrist a few times. Nothing happened just bright pink lines showed up. Then his words came back to me "You're nothing more than just like your family." He was right. No matter what I do, what I say, what I change. I am a Black. I always will be. Black's have bad blood. And bad blood deserves to be drained.

I then cut harder and longer. I cut because I hurt him. I hurt Remus. My Remus. My Moony. I cut because I disappointed him. I cut because I broke my promise to him. And I cut because I broke the promise to myself that I'd never hurt him.

I finally set the bloody blade down onto the rug. Tears were still streaming down my face. Angry sad tears at that. I jump when I suddenly hear a knock on the door. "Sirius?" Remus called. "Yes?" I answered. Oh no. I could feel myself getting dizzy. I cut too deep. Again. "Do you want any food?" He asked. "Oh! Um no- no thanks" I said shakily. Good he doesn't suspect anything. It will be too late by the time someone finds out.

I could feel my eyes drop close. "Sirius?" I heard my name again. I was getting annoyed now. I just wanted to sleep. "Yes, Remus?" I called annoyed. "Are you okay?" He asked. I didn't respond. "I'm coming in." He said finally. Shit.

Remus' POV

I open the door to find Sirius on the ground. Clothes soaked, arms bloody, and a bloody razor a few inches from his hand. "Sirius!!" I called. I quickly went into the Cabinets and got out bandages. I quickly wrapped his arms and got out my wand to heal him.

After a few minutes, I had Sirius all cleaned up. I look at his face to find him awake but Avoiding my eyes. "Sirius? Baby?" I called with my eyes tearing up. Finally he look at me." I'm so sorry" He mumbled "No! No! Don't be sorry!" I said while crying. I pulled him into my arms, 'This is my fault, I made him feel like this ,I made him feel like he had to hurt himself and not be able to talk about it.' I thought.

After a few minutes of us sitting on the bathroom floor, crying and rocking back and fourth, I pulled away and looked at his face. I saw that he was asleep. I gently picked him up and carried him to the bedroom. I then cast a drying charm on him and took his clothes off. I put him in pajamas and put a warming charm on the blanket for him.

I turned and got dressed myself. When I finally turned to go to bed I noticed Sirius was looking at me through sleepy eyes. "Yes, baby?" I asked. "Cuddle, please" he asked reaching his arms up towards me. I walked over to the bed and got in with him.

Finally, after a long night of crying we both fell asleep. Me on my back with pillows surrounding me and Sirius fast asleep on my chest, clutching my white tank top tightly.

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