Dear Diary

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It wasn't a question as to weather I'd come over later or not. Sure we had school, but he'd be waiting. I knew that.

During dreaded physics class, he asks to go to the washroom, and as he's walking by my desk leaves a note. It's half a page. The half he gave me was part of a journal entry that reads about how I want to misbehave. The missing part is how I described I'd like to be punished.

Fuck. I just had to be specific. He looks back at me as he leaves, and then walks out the door. I wait a few minutes before raising my hand, and going after him.

I hesitate before entering into the bathrooms, and last minute decide to screw it, and turn back around. Not five feet I make it before I hear, "going somewhere?"

Shittttt shit shit. "Um. Yeah, I actually forgot something- tampons. Yeah. Got my period this morning." I turn around to face him and his arms are crossed as he leans against the bathroom doorframe.

"Interesting. You didn't seem to clean anything as you left."

"Mhm, yeah that's true so I'll be right back," I do a little spin, and fast walk away. He laughs. Im a such a terrible liar.

"So you don't want this?" My head turns. He holds a ripped piece of paper. "I actually think I have a much better spot for it like- maybe on the schools billboard?"

My face pales.

"Why don't you come down to the stair well with me so I don't have to do that."

"I-"

Then I run at him. So fast, he doesn't have time to react as I grab the paper and run.

I run so fast I think my feet create clouds of dust for him to eat.

I hear his footsteps moments later, "Alice!!!"

I bolt into a stairwell, and run out the doors. Faster, faster.

I didn't bring my car today, so I bolt towards the forest. Maybe I'll loose him. But then what? Maybe I can break into his house and steal the rest of it. Although knowing him, he probably keeps it on him.

The sounds of footsteps behind me goes quiet, and when I'm fairly deep in the forest, are completely gone.

Okaaay. I open up the crumpled page.

It's- it's blank. Fuck.

I'm fuming now. He fucking tricked me!!! And he even chased after me, and for what?

I stomp out of the forest. When I reach it's edge, I see him smugly leaned against his car with his arms crossed over his chest.

"What the fuck??"

He smirks down at me. "So cute thinking I'd let you cheat so easily."

"I'm sick of this fucking game."

"And yet you decided to leave hickies all over my back. I'm sick of you not being able to listen. Do I need to keep you restrained as we sleep?"

My face is red with anger.

"You know what? Fuck you. And fuck everyone else," I yell, "you want to expose my diary, go ahead!! I'm done playing your stupid game."

"You're done?"

"Yess!! I- I hate you!! And just- fuck you!!"

"Lovely. Now get in the car, so we can go."

"What do you mean go?? I have a class which I actually care to get to unlike some people." I storm past him.

"You know, maybe if you'd come with me you'd get the real half."

"No. I told you, I'm done."

"Fine. How about dinner?"