Family first

34. Annabelle's chapters

A couple of weeks have passed, and everything has gone back to 'normal'. Nothing feels normal, I can't wait to leave this place and start a new life with Zayn. A happy life with a new family

I had finished my work early today and cooked early as well, we are running low on meat, so I'm not allowed to cook a lot of meat. I was sitting on the bed reading the rest of Annabelle's book

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(It's Kayla's first week)

Another day feeling alone in
This house..
Even though I have Kayla here
It's not the same. Shaun beat me
Late night, he said he was teaching
I have a lesson, but I don't know what
It was supposed to teach me. It's a snow day
Today. The boys are waiting for me to join
Them outside and make snow
Objects with them, such beautiful memories
To treasure with my sons

"Come on, mum!" Jayden shouted from outside

He always enjoyed the snow

"Race you outside, mum!" Jaxson said, running towards the door

He is so hyper. My crazy boy

"Put a scarf on mum," Zayn said before walking out

My sweet son, he always cares about everyone
Sadly, I know he won't last in this family
I just hope Shaun doesn't kill him
I wish you better for my children

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I enjoyed the wonderful day outside with my
Children. Shaun wasn't here, I'm so happy
I wish I could leave with my kids and raise
Them up by myself. I'll have 3 strong happy
Boys, choosing their own life's. Not following
The stupid insane life's Shaun has planned for them

I wanted to leave before Jayden got his girl, actually
Way before that. I wanted to take them and leave when Jayden was on 10. He would've helped me with Zayn and Jaxson, who would've been 9 and 8 at the time.

The best moments of my life were with them, and I would give anything to have a better life with them. Sadly, Jayden is now 19 and has a girl, her name is Kayla. She seems like a sweet girl, she doesn't talk much so I don't know as yet. She's gonna miss so much of her life now that she's here, but Jayden will make her happy

... hopefully...

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Annabelle snapped out of the trans of their brainwashing method. I actually fell for it until I got mixed up with the 2 brothers. I have mixed feelings, though. As much as I want to leave this place with Zayn, I'm gonna miss Jax, and what about Taylor. How am I gonna take him with me, I'm not leaving him here. Jax will definitely kill him once I'm gone

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Everything feels the same being stuck in his damn house. I feel trapped, or am I just trapped in my own mind and can't get out. Shaun has been a little bit nicer now, I still remember the first time meeting him

He was so nice and caring. It was hard to see even a drop of evil spark through him. He had such a sweet smile and a caring heart. He took me in and kept me safe. He was my safe place. Even when Jerry was weird at times, He went with it but did not for one second forget about me. Everything was greeted until we had Jayden. He became more strict and scary. He would beat me every single day without care in the world

It was even worse when Zayn was born, I couldn't even breathe most of the time, I felt like just dying at those moments. Like I wanted him to just kill me at those moments, end my suffering already. But at the same time. I wanted to say alive so I can take care of my babies without their abusive father hitting them for everything small, pathetic thing