i've been trying to find myself in others
and i think i'm finally getting somewhere.
i've never been one to deal
well with the temporary nature
of relationships,
but i think i'm maturing;
learning to enjoy what comes my way
without latching to a perceived
expiration date.
but i still find myself fixated on the future,
not so much as before,
where i wouldn't allow myself to enjoy
the present,
but still wondering if what i'm building
is worth it,
if im not certain i'll reap happiness
tangible enough to last me a few days.
i know losing myself would be easier,
painless,
but i can't open the next chapter of my life
with a scattered foundation.
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sometimes rain, sometimes rainbow - poetry collection
Poetrya collection of poems, written in real time about the good, the bad, and the ugly that comes with healing. PLEASE READ THE CONTENT WARNINGS this poetry collection includes themes and descriptions of: sexual violence/assault/harassment PTSD halluci...