love lost

dear old friend

sometimes i wonder,

I wonder if that night ever crosses your mind,

I wonder if you ever think about
the way we looked at each other that night,
the way that our eyes lit up
as we were locked into each other's gaze.

i wonder if you even enjoyed being in my arms
like i enjoyed having you in them.

I wonder if you felt the warmth i felt when our lips intertwined

i wonder if you ever think about texting me but you just don't

i wonder if you actually really care like i thought you did

i wonder if you know how hurt i am
and how hurt you made me.

but i also wonder if you know how peaceful being around you made me feel

I also wonder if you know that the only few happy days i had this past year
were with you.

but now you have disappeared and honestly
I'm totally lost
and I don't know why.

maybe because I've never felt your touch before until that night

maybe because the way you looked at me that night seemed so real

maybe because the way you treated me that night was so sweet and caring
and for some reason I always had wished for that treatment from you.

maybe it's because you are the only person I've met that has brought me complete and total peace.

but now that peace has vanished
and so have you.

so here I am
sitting here day after day
praying that my peace comes back,
hoping and praying that you come back.