love lost

I'll always love you

so, its officially over between us.

it's weird just the other day we were calling each other "baby"
now look at where we are.

I try not to think about it,
I try not to think about how i messed up,
and i try not to think about how another girl
who is not me
is going to find comfort in you one day.

she is going to find comfort in all the things in you I once did.

i try not to think about the fact you are going to end up
falling in love with someone
who's not me.

I hate that.
I hate that you are not mine anymore.
but now I realize you never were.

we never dated so why do i care
why
why

why do i stay up at night craving your touch
why do i stay up at night crying over the fact I can't text you.

i tried acting like when you told me it was a mistake I didn't care
i tried acting like it didn't feel like a bullet went right through me
but it did feel that way and i do fucking care.

you felt like home to me.
you were a comforting and beautiful soul to be around.
and i hope you know i will always love you

even if we may never speak again.