3 A. M. Writer- 𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚍 𝚊𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚕

Identity Theft- Why I Struggled to Relate

I may have mentioned before that I kinned Bakugo and Tanaka, plus Edward Elric and Saiki K, Sakuna (do NOT ask about this one) or Bokuto. I would like to bring to the stage the story of how I figured that out and my adventures with identity theft.

For a long time I had never gotten a 16 personality MITB test result that I had agreed with. I had taken many and each of them reflected the people I had been around at the time. That meant that each time I took it, I got the same thing as my mom, my brother, my friend Katy, and even my aunt. I knew that this couldn't be right, especially after I had gotten different results three times in one week.

From that moment, I made a goal to find my true 16 Personality result. This goal went immediately to the back of my mind to rot until I had forgotten all about it. It didn't come up again until about three months later.

I had just started watching My Hero Academia and was tentatively sticking my toe in the fandom. I had finished season one and there was one character that stood out to me in particular. Bakugo Katsuki. This demon boy felt oddly familiar and seemed to appear whenever I had a thought of, "Why did that character make that stupid move? That was really dumb." He'd pop in with the exact thought I had just had and it freaked me out. I didn't do anything about it for a while, though I made note of it and moved on to shipping KiriBaku.

I accepted it and finished the second season. I realized more and more why I thought this angry firework was so familiar. It was like watching me on screen, but with more of a god complex and blonde. I began to hate him. Of course, this was me thinking that I was a special and unique individual and not figuring out that kinning someone was something I could do too. I thought he was stealing my identity, my personality, and my talents.

Being a drummer for several years before becoming a weeb, it made me angry (ironically) that someone else was doing it too but being fan-girled over it. Bakugo, "the drummer" Katsuki was stealing not only my instrument, my one and only love in life, but also my talent of baking and cooking. Plus the unrelenting anger given by me onto those who don't necessarily deserve it. Who was this boy and why did he have to ruin my life?

I finished the show up to season three when the rest hadn't come out yet. I had forgotten about my kinning moment with the TNT. My life was fine without him, I had moved on! I could be ok without him in my life, right? NO. APPARENTLY HE WOULDN'T LEAVE ME ALONE BECAUSE I GOT THE SAME PERSONALITY TYPE AS HIM MONTHS LATER.

The test I took was accurate. Finally, after years and months of waiting I had gotten a result that was the most accurate to my personality. I was proud, hopeful, and innocent. Until my brother made me look up which anime characters had the same personality as ENTJ.

There the proud boy stood, smirking at me in his little circle profile picture with the thought of, "Surprise shawty! Missed me?" I, of course, slammed the computer shut and walked away. I couldn't take it anymore. The child who I'd tried to avoid, the one who I had related to to an unholy degree, was grinning at me evilly on my google search.

My identity had been stolen by an anime character and I didn't know what to do anymore. So I abandoned him. That's right, I left him at the entrance of the coal mines and yelled, "Get to work filthy beast and maybe I'll feed you by sharing a fan-art I found later!"

That made my brother mad. Micheal liked Bakugo a lot, and it made him sad-ish to see me fuel a hatred for someone who didn't exist. So he tried to show me that it was ok to like someone unlikable. He would send me funny posts he found about Bakugo, to which I would respond with, "haha, I do that" like that vine with the long haired kid. (R.I.P Vine) He'd show me cool cosplays, videos, and made me watch the last two seasons. He even bought me merch so I could chill.

Now all I have to say about it is that I don't hate him anymore, but I do find it disappointing that I can't go a day without thinking, "Is this me, or is it my Bakugo coming out?"

This has only been the case with him, however since that experience of discovering that I could kin people as well, I found acceptance in the relatability. For example, I find that there are reasons why I can kin Saiki K, but not Kenma as much. (Though with more exposure to gaming as of recently, I have been descending into the late night gaming pit...)

On a completely separate topic, Edward Elric has been a wondrous discovery as I've gotten older. I haven't grown a single inch since I was twelve and get immensely defensive when someone brings up my height. However, I find that I joke about it myself. I know that he grows up to become a tall, beautiful man, but that definitely won't happen to me. I am freaking gorgeous so I do relate to the beautiful part I guess. *Insert dramatic hair flip*