TN to NYC (A Sonny Carisi Fanfiction)

Long Day

****Sonny's POV****
Monday January 9th
At lunch with Olivia and Sophia
Shake Shack Sophia picked

"I don't know how I managed all these years not having a shake shack in Tennessee and it tastes even better pregnant."
Sophia said wiping her face

Olivia and I both laughed
She's the cutest

"Thanks for being with me today. Both of you."
Sophia said

"You are most welcome, it's what we are here for."
Olivia put her hand on Sophia's shoulder
and then put it back down

"I'm nervous about the trial. Seeing Travis, him knowing I'm pregnant."
Sophia said

My heart clinched when she said that
I closed my eyes beginning to remember something's that happened
I hadn't had problems for awhile

"Sonny, Sonny."
Olivia said bringing me back to reality

Olivia had her hand on my arm

"Are you ok?"
Olivia asked

"Yeah, just had a flashback."
I said

I wiped my eyes

"It's ok."
Olivia said

"I'm really sorry Sonny."
Sophia said

"It's not your fault, it's all apart of the process."
I smiled

"Do you want to talk about it?"
Olivia said

I let out a deep breath

"When they was assaulting Sophia
(I began to choke on tears) I could hear some of it and feel some movements on the bed, but I couldn't move or do anything, I begged and pleaded in my head I would die My body was paralyzed from the drugs, and shock. I froze, I wish I coulda done something. To think that's when she got pregnant and I shoulda done something. Daniel coming into the precinct with the flowers, he knew Lauren and the mess I shoulda listened in the beginning and got away from. Her sooner this is all my fault  ."
I just began to sob
Right in the middle of the restaurant

"Sonny, Sonny..."
Olivia rubbed my shoulders

I couldn't hear or say anything I just sobbed.

****Sophia's POV****

I sat there and watched Olivia comfort Sonny as he sobbed, I felt so bad about how he felt not really knowing some of what he said. I can't believe he thinks it's his fault, it's not. It's no one's except for Lauren and Travis.
That's what our therapist said.
I'm now wondering more what is written in that card. I didn't know what to say or do except to let Olivia do her thing.
I wiped a few tears from my eyes.
I just wanted to hug him and tell him that I love him and that he's going to be ok, it's going to be ok.

"Sonny why don't we go back to the precinct and we'll get the therapist in ok?"
Olivia got him to calm down more

He nodded his head and wiped his eyes.
We all got up from the table and walked outside

"I'll pull up the car."
Olivia said

Sonny and I stood there for a minute and I looked at Sonny and he was staring at the ground

I took my hand and gently grabbed his right hand and held it
He then gently wrapped his fingers around my hand
I felt electricity go through my body

Olivia then pulled up
We hurried and let go of each other's hands
I got in the back and Sonny got in the front seat

The drive back was quiet
No one said a word