August 4th, 1975
(Saturday)Standing in my bed room I ran my fingers across the spines of my books, dark purple lips twisted into a grimance, eyebrows furrowed in frustration. "I was sure..." I mumbled, searching through the bookshelf. My room, not unlike my brothers, was full of books--though most were on transformations, werewolves, and anything else on the magical subject of the fullmoon--though a few of Remus's old school books and encyclopedias on the dead sat by my bed in tedious stacks. My walls were painted a deep red, black and white overlapping silhouettes of ballerina dancers painted on the walls. My floor is hard wood and cold against my bare feet--I only wore a pair of blue shorts, a red singlet and my usual rubber black linked choker--but I paid it no mind too determined to find my book. Teeth grazing my bottom lip and smirked wickedly, tugging a large tome from the top shelf, though I had to go up on my tippy toes--the woes of a 5 foot 4 midget girl. Oh well, I sighed in faint amusement, lugging the thick book over to my bed. My long brown hair fell around my face but I brushed it back, smirking like a well fed cat. Smugly, I guess it's called. 'Animagi: a study of human Transformation' the title read, the binder telling me the writer was called 'W. Fuhrman'. "He thought height would stop me? Typical Remy," I murmured with a wide smirk on my lips. You see--ever since Remus owled me about his friends finding out he was a werewolf I've wanted to help him even more, especially when said friends accepted him easily. So, not to his knowledge, I owled Sirius Black and James Potter and told them if they want to help Remus to go to the Library and look up Animagi--I signed it 'Ava' and informed them I was a friend of Remus, and that if they tell him I'll castrate them. When Remus told me in second year they were halfway through their training I was excited, though annoyed. They had acsess to resources I needed. I have a wand--12', Thestrial tail hair, Yew--but no books. After the death scene in the park there have been a few more--I see dead people with missing eyes and bloodied clothing roaming the streets--some wet and cold, some with bruises on their necks...ever since the park it was like my eyes had been opened--I could see, and it felt horrible. I finally knew what Remus went through, but in a different way. I feel the person's pain when they touch my skin, I see violent deaths where they were committed--I've seen the life leave so many people's eyes...I never went to Hogwarts because of my fear--instead Remus became my holiday professor, and I made him swear to not mention me outside of 'I have a sister, she's not here, lovely weather were having'. I don't want him to be put into the position to lying to his friends about me. I only managed to get my hands on an Animagi book in Remus's third year when his friends finally got it, and here and now as a 15 year old girl I'm on the brink. My patronus didn't work because I can't find a strong enough memory, but I know in my gut it will work. Remus found out over the holidays and ever since he's been hiding my books and putting them in high to reach places--like that ever stopped a determined witch wanting to help her big brother. I also confessed to passing the idea along to James and Sirius, two boys I've never met, so he's getting ready to kill them in a few weeks when they meet up in Diagon Alley. I have kept in touch with Sirius, James too through Sirius's letters, and I hope one day to meet them. When I master my Animagus I will go to Hogwarts. I'll help Remus and meet my pen pals who I think I've doomed via Remy. Oopsey? Either way I'm excited. I told Sirius I was part troll, and I told James to not tell him I'm not. He sent back a howler that laughed for 20 whole minutes. I also told Sirius I live in a cave next door to Remus and that my boyfriend the centaur says hi. James sent another laughing howler--I've never seen a howler so cheerful--I loved it. Remus thought I, and the Howler, was nuts. Grabbing my wand--it's pure white and spirals up, though it feels like a bone from the skeleton in a creepy science teachers classroom--I held it in front of me, re reading the text a few times so I wouldn't mess anything up. "Nosmerte Culeiam, Normerte Trego, Nosmerte Culeiam, Nosmerte Trego--" I repeated, reaching over to grab a plain violet vile as I spoke, slowly standing, though my knees trembled. Not a shred of doubt clouded my mind. "--Culeiam, Nosmerte Trego," that said I drank the vile, fighting a gasp as it slid down my throat like slime, horrid, sluggish, slime. Shaking off the feeling I cloased my eyes feeling my wand warm. "Nosmerte Normarte Hoakaskte Mau Trego," I finished with finality, focusing on my inner core, not that I was sure what it would be. The inner me--my spirit animal. Briefly I worried it didn't work, again, but that's when I felt it. A tingel in my spine, a crack in my arm, a heat in the front of my mind. I was shifting, reaching down onto my knees. It wasn't fluid, it won't be at first, and I felt this unnatural awful sensation in my bones and my head. It didn't hurt--not in the least. It felt wrong, yet oh so right at the same time. It felt...it felt like I was being flattened into dough and baked into Mama's homemade cookies and thrown into a hot oven. Then everything around me bluured and changed, my surrounding becoming serial and off. Confusion swamped my mind and I tried to cry out, only to get a soft snort in response, my hoof clicking on the hard wood floor. Wait...hoof? Walking was a chore, but it was worth it when I reached the mirror across the hall. In my place stood a large horse made of bones, big pale green eyes the only thing I recongnized. I was the height of a race horse, if a little under, and I felt as oddly strong. I also felt an odd calm sensation in my 'bones', serene I guess. Letting out a loud snort I clomped out of the bathroom, making my way off to scare Remus. I found him eating chocolates in the kitchen, writing with a blue and black quill on a long piece of parchment. Clomping over I grabbed his shirt and tugged. He looked up in confusion, staring right at me, before looking back down. Huh? Frowning mentally I trotted over to stare down at his parchment, though in my new form it took a moment for the words to come to focus. It was a potions essay on what appears to be common poison antidotes. Shaking my head I grabbed his quill, moving backwards as he looked up. He jumped startled staring at his quill. "What the Godric?" He asked himself confused and I frowned, dropping his quill on the table. Why can't he see me? I'm a skeletal horse--not hard to miss...miss...Thestrial. I'm a Thestrial. He CAN'T see me because he's never seen death. Holy crap. Remus taught me about those last week--creatures of death, only those who have seen death can see them. That explains the skeletal wings I suppose, not that I'm complaining on that little fashion statement if it means I can eventually fly. Focusing on myself I pulled on my strength only to feel that horrible flattening sensation wash over me, along with the heat and a tingle of energy crawling up my spine. For a moment I worried I couldn't turn back, I would be an invisible horse forever, but I pushed it back knowing I had to help Remus--being invisible won't help Remus. Stumbling I regained form on two feet. I glanced at Remus who gaped absouletly confused. I stumbled once more all of a sudden feeling sapped of energy. "I did it," I wheezed, and would of fallen over, if Remus hadn't gotten up to steady me. "Done what? Invisibility charm?" He asked almost hopefully. I shook my head. "No--I'm an Animagus," I said, repeating it in my mind, though illegal it is, before grinning widely at my resigned older brother. "What are you? A lady bug?" He asked weakly, hoping I wasn't big enough to help, and I grinned. "No--I'm a thestrial," I chirped gladly. Remus choked on air. "W-What?" I continued to grin despite my light headedness. "Don't you get it Remus? I can help now! I'm a huge invisible horse with wings--I can help!" I told him excited, grin lighting up my face. Remus looked at me sullenly, eyes hard showing his opinion was final. "No--I will NOT let you put yourself in harm's way for my Avaya Rosemary Lupin." Well we'll see about that now won't we? I thought to myself, stomping off to my room to reply to Dumbledore for the first time in four years. For the first time I'm leaving my house again--no matter what Remus says I'm helping him, and to do that, I'm going to Hogwarts.
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ФанфікиAll Avaya Lupins ever wanted to do is help her brother, though due to her odd 'gift' she was forced to stay home, homeschooled as if that would stop the horrific scenes that replayed outside her bedroom.. So what happens when she finds a way to help...