the book of heartbreak

day 4

Yesterday I got upset when you left, and I don't know why I did that.

We talked all day yesterday, and the whole time I felt like I was annoying you. You said I wasn't, and not to worry. I still worried.

Last night you said you were going to watch a movie, and I got sad. I missed talking to you, and suddenly you were blowing me off for movies. You never did that before, and I wasn't used to it.

You saw that I was upset, and you told me that I was still your favorite girl and that you still loved me. There were just things you'd rather be doing instead. I said okay.

I'm not your number one priority anymore, and that hurts. I'm not the one that you come running to when you're upset and you don't say you love me and you don't talk to me with as much enthusiasm. Instead it's just one word answers that I reply to with paragraphs.

You also said you were only talking to the girls because you needed lots of people to talk to. I wasn't talking to anyone except you.

That hurts, too.