the book of heartbreak

day 31

It is 10:51 pm, and I am finally happy. Because you are mine.

Last night you were with your friends, who were high, but you weren't high. I know you don't do drugs because you're a good person, but I couldn't help but think you were high when you told me what you did.

You told me I was beautiful and that you wanted to give us a try. You said I was amazing and that you were falling in love with me. You made me feel special.

And sitting here thinking it through, I am so in love with you that it makes me sick to my stomach. I love your mind and your body and your soul and the way you love things. I love the way your hair sticks out in the back and the way you tell corny jokes to try and make me laugh.

You are mine.