the book of heartbreak

day 8

Things are almost okay again. We're friends, good friends actually, and it's almost okay.

But the other boy isn't okay. He's now ignoring me, and after all this time he pretended to care about me when he really didn't. Not only is he ignoring me, but he also doesn't even look at me.

Nothing hurts more than sitting at a table with him and your friends while they all laugh and smile and you feel so alone. So alone with the people who are supposed to care about you the most.

I really miss you. I wish none of this had ever happened. I wish he never happened. Being ignored and not talking for an hour in a room full of other happy people is heartbreaking.

Almost as much as losing you was.