I fucking hate u

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The fact my MOTHER sent me that photo that's at the top is insane to me
Also I'm back. Ya miss me? Probably not
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Y/n POV:
So Billie eilish is my ex...yes the real Billie eilish and she texted me today even tho we broke up 4 years ago I open the message and it says "can I come over pls?" I sigh and say yes bc I wanna see wtf she has to say. Let me clear this out first, she cheated on me with her best friend bc they were "drunk" which I don't believe. And it was a day after my birthday but yk. Life goes on and yet I still fucked with her.

After an hour Billie comes over and I've just got out the shower so I tell her to come upstairs in the bathroom bc well I need to be in there still bc I gotta do shit before I finish with the bathroom. Billie stands behind me as I stare at her through the mirror "what do u want" I ask whilst cleaning my face "I'm sorry" I shoot my head up from the towel I was using and look behind me at her

"the fuck u mean ur sorry??" I ask and bil repeats herself "I'm sorry"
"How can u say ur sorry after u left me for our friend 4 years ago. Cheated on me with our friend then come back??" I say and turn back around

"I only wanted to say I'm sorry" bil says looking at me through the mirror again "that's it? Nothing else?? Like coming back for a fuck then leaving me for a month like what u did before?" I kinda feel bad for getting angry with Billie but she hurt me

I sigh and turn around looking at her "I'm sorry I raised my voice. U just hurt me bil. U rlly did and I don't think u understand"

"Put me in ur position then" bil says looking up at me

"Billie u cheated on me with our friend, and i couldn't understand you when you was crying. Even tho you was the one who cheated. That shit fucking hurt u also used me just for sex I didn't feel loved one bit. Try imagine urself in my shoes" I say with hurt laced in my voice

"Y/n. U will never know how sorry I am, from the bottom of my fucking soul I'm sorry. I acted like such a dick and I never meant to hurt u. I was young too. We both was and I'm sorry I treated u like that, but I've changed now. I rlly have I'm not the same girl I used to be" she says a tear threatening to leave her eye

"I have watched u grow up more. I mean I remember u by 'the blue haired girl who never gave a fuck' but now ur the 'the sweet blond girl everyone wants'" (NOTHING AGAINST THE BLUE HAIRED ERA IT WAS THE FIRST HAIR COLOUR THAT CAME TO MIND)

"See I have I'm so different now. Pls take me back. I promise I'll be good this time" she says staring at me

I sigh and nod my head "fuck me over and Istg I'll kill u"

"I will never ever let u down again I promise" bil says smiling and hugging me

"U do know that now we gotta build that trust back up and ur not going out drinking with anyone unless I'm there" she nods her head and hugs me tighter

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This is kinda like a life event I mean the shit I put in it is. And idc if she reads this

And why tf was u reading my book anyway. And if u are and u still are. U haven't changed u have just convinced u and ur big ego that u have

Anyway bye

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