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Shaking

I'll be ok

Prob gonna delete that photo

TW: SH
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Y/n pov:
I'm sat on the bathroom floor crying and shaking badly, staring at the mess I just made on my thigh. "Billies gonna be mad" I whisper to myself. I get up and it causes my legs to go weak, I grip onto the edge of the sink and try pull myself together. I clean up my cuts and pull my joggers (sweat pants) up

"Hey honey I'm home!!" I hear Billie shout, I pull myself together and go downstairs to see her

"Hi my pretty girl!" She says with open arms causing me to smile. I stumble towards her, which causes her to stand back one step
"Are you ok?" I nod my head at her cause it feels like there's barbed wire around my throat

"Don't lie to me baby" she says in a soft voice to not scare me. As soon as she ends her sentence I break down. I start shaking violently, with tears streaming down my face

"Hey, shhh shh it's ok my love I've got you. Don't cry sweet girl, I've got you. You're ok in my arms" she wraps her arms around me holding me close, she picks me up and walks us to the living room where she can sit down with me on her lap

"Tell me what happened baby"
I point to my neck hoping she knows I can't talk. She nods her head and holds me in her arms longer. As she rubbing my back and kissing my head I'm able to speak and tell her what's wrong

"It's ok sweet girl, I've got you now. Nothing can hurt you. When you're in my arms, imagine this big shield around us and nothing can get pass it, no bad thoughts, no bad things. Just us ok?"
I nod my head and cuddle up to her more not wanting to leave

*time skip to an hour*

I've calmed down a lot and we're now watching paradise PD, Billie starts to play with my hair
"Y/n baby?" (Best nickname I've ever been given) i look up at her with tired eyes

"Can you show me them?" I put my head back down on her chest and simply say 'I'm sorry'

"It's ok princess, I understand don't worry" I kiss her neck and it causes me to smile to know she still understands after having to go through hell with me and she hasn't left
"I love you" I say under a whisper
"I love you too sweetheart" she says kissing my head

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I was gonna make this into a sex thing where it's slow, gentle, passionate sex. But icba to write that. Hopefully I can bring out a sex chapter for y'all