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Comforting chapter

I'm in the lowest of lows rn

Yh that's me crying, go easy on me guys

TRIGGER WARNING:
Please do not read ahead if you are triggered by
Suicide attempts
Depression
And a good fucking imagination because if you imagine the shit what I write whilst you read. You gonna be feeling like shit after this chapter. I don't mean to obvs I want you lot to be happy
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Y/n pov:
"Baby come back please" i hear Billie pleading for me to get down from the overpass
"I don't wanna be here no more" i tell her with tears in my eyes

"I know you don't, trust me I've seen the signs y/n. But you need to come back behind the railing so we can talk about it"

A million thoughts running through my head, do i jump?
or do i get back and go back into billies arm where i feel safe?

"Please y/n, i need you"

My hand starts to slip off the metal railing
I start to hear footsteps on the ground coming near me, i flinch thinking she was gonna hit me.
She holds my hand to keep me close to the railing

"I love you y/n so much, and i wanna prove that to you, i want to spend the rest of my life with you. Please come back"
I step back over the railing and instantly being pulled into billies arms

"Thank you, thank you thank you thank you" she says whilst holding me close and rocking us side to side
"I've got you baby. Nothings gonna happen anymore. I got you, I'm going to protect you" she says whilst I just cry, feeling a weight on my chest

After a while the police arrive asking Billie what had happened. I'm sat against the railing when a paramedic comes over

"What happened my love?" She asks kneeling down next to me
"I tried to commit"
"How come?"
"My mental health is so bad and I don't want to be in pain anymore"
I say tears threatening to leave my eyes
"Oh you poor thing. Come with me and we'll go sit in the ambulance and we can talk there yeah?"
I look over at Billie with a worried look wondering if they are gonna take me away
"Don't worry Billie will join us after, I'm not taking you away from her"
She holds out her hand and I go with her into the ambulance and sit down on the bed they have

"So tell me what happened today"
She says sitting down in front of me
"Well I have severe depression and It's just got worse and worse over these past couple of days and I didn't wanna feel the weight on my chest anymore so I was gonna jump"
"You're brave for telling me, a lot of people wouldn't be honest. I'm proud of you" she says rubbing my arm up and down

After a while of talking Billie opens the door and sits down next to me immediately, wrapping her arms around me pulling me close
"I'm so glad you're ok" bil says to me kissing my head

After that, the paramedic starts talking to Billie and I zone out not hearing a word they say. When the paramedic is finished talking to bil she holds my hand making me snap out of my thoughts

"It's time to go home okay?" I nod my head and hold her hand tightly terrified she's gonna let go of me
I look at the women who looked after me for a little time and thanked her so much

"Don't thank me, I'm just happy I was able to keep an amazing human on this planet" I smile at her and say bye to her
"She was nice" bil says walking us to her car, I nod my head at her
When we get to her car, she opens the passenger door and sits me down, she walks to her side and gets in. She leans over and puts my seatbelt on me and she puts hers on herself

"You realise you're gonna have to get therapy for this right?" I nod my head and put it down in shame for making Billie worried sick
"My love, you shouldn't feel bad that was a cry for help and I'm so happy you didn't jump. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me and you've helped me more than you could imagine" she says
"Can I hold your hand?" I nod my head and she interlocks her fingers with mine

"I um, i love you" I tell her trying to remind her I love her
"I love you so much more darling. now come on, let's get home and we can do whatever you want"
"Movie?" I say in one word. Her noticing I speak in small words after a episode

"Of course my love what film?"
"Epic movie" I say smiling happy that she understands me
"That's a good one. It'll definitely lift our moods" she says smiling to because I am
"Funny" I look at her as she starts the car
"It is" I rest my head on the back of the seat and taking a deep breath feeling safe again with her

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Depression beating my ass right now

I keep having a really heavy weight on my chest and it don't hurt but it don't feel right Yk?