Our last summer as kids

Max

Today's the day, I'm going to apologize to Tracy, set her straight about her behavior and get her out of my life once and for all. 

I didn't know what time to leave for the diner, so I waited until she posted to drive to the place. 

After, Tracy posted, I got up, got my keys and headed straight to the diner.

Once I stepped into Sweat Grill, it had a smoky smell to it, and it looked a little run down, 

maybe I was wrong, maybe this wasn't the place. 

My head started to fill with doubt but was quickly washed away when I noticed Tracy in a corner 

wearing a short baby blue crop top and her head full of curls 

There was this sudden urge to touch her hair, as it looked so fluffy and soft

MAX, enough, you're here for one thing and one thing only 

getting out of my head, I start to walk towards, Tracy, once at her table I sit down waiting for her to notice me 

she looked so serious writing, something so intently, it kind of looked cute 

MAX, stop 

not wanting to stay there any longer than I needed to be, I tapped Tracy making her slightly jump and closing the book she was writing in 

she takes her ear buds out and just stares at me 

"hey" I respond a little nervous now that she's looking at me in the eyes 

silence, she says absolutely nothing 

"Not going to say anything back" 

she says nothing but tilts her head slightly and leans back into her seat 

"You know it's disrespectful to not respond to someone when they are speaking to you" 

this time instead of staring at me she puts her ear buds back in and opens her book and continues to write 

Is this chick serious? 

this time I tap her a little harder than the first time I tapped her, she looks up taking out her earphones  

she just stares at me, not saying a single thing

"Ok, well I'm just going to say what I came here for, since clearly you aren't in, your right mind" 

she crosses her arms after my comment and makes a face of disgust 

rude 

"I'm here to apologize, for everything, what happened at prom and for what happened at the cafe, I should have stood up for you and I shouldn't have accused you of taking photos of my friends and I when you weren't. You didn't deserve any of that and I'm sorry" 

silence, again 

"Anything to say" 

silence, she just stares at me

"Listen I'm not here apologizing to you because I have some sort of feeling towards you, don't get it twisted, I just felt guilty and wanted to get this off my chest" 

she takes a deep sigh, uncrossing her arms and shaking her head 

"Since we are on the topic of getting things off my chest, I want to talk to you about your attitude towards your mom. I know I may have upset you but that doesn't mean to take it out on your mom. Your mom is a great woman, it wouldn't hurt to show her some respect" 

that felt good to say, it felt right. Now that I've apologized and said what I needed to say my work here is done. 

She laughed. She fucking laughed 

"what's so funny" I say a little ticked off 

she shakes her head laughing a little harder. 

she then puts her headphones back in, packing her notebook into her bag and taking out a book 

she starts reading said book 

"Hey, I said what's so funny" 

she say's nothing but continues to read her book 

"You know what I don't care, here I was trying to be nice and give you some friendly advice, but you clearly don't want it, so I'm going to go" 

she says nothing just continues to read; I don't know why this pissed me off so much 

why wouldn't she respond to me, I wanted to know what she was thinking, why didn't she want to talk to me 

instead of getting up like I said I would I just sat there and stared at her while she read. 

I don't know why I care so much; this is what I've wanted since I was 11 but why does something feel off

tapping her again for the third time she looks up taking an ear bud out while raising her eyebrows 

I didn't really have anything to say I just wanted her to look at me... weird 

"You know giving me the silent treatment isn't going to make me want you, it just makes you look like a brat" 

She gives me another look of disgust but instead of going back to reading her book she starts packing her stuff up and getting up to go but before she leaves, she gives me a mean stare and speaks 

"Ass" 

then she left. Didn't look back or say anything else. she said only one word while I was here, ONE WORD. 

I didn't know why it annoyed me the way it did, but I just assumed it was my pride, yeah that's what it is. 

She disrespected me, when I was only trying to be nice, that's it, my pride

and since my pride won't let this go, I'm going to come back tomorrow and get her to apologize.