Hurricane Kai: Poetry Collection

Borderline Toxic

Banging my head against the wall, I grit my teeth. 
Filled with tension, my body is as hard as a wall of stone.
All I want to do is scream, but I hold it in.
So badly, I want to cry, but instead I just close my eyes.
It hurts- my head, my heart, my entire soul & being.
I'm so tired of fighting.
I'm so tired of trying just to get nowhere.
The sun shines above me, and yet I'm still looking for the bright side.
Everything I say, negative.
My friends, I drain them.
I just want someone by my side, someone to hold me, someone to tell me it'll all be ok.
It gets heavy carrying all of this weight on my own.