The Alpha's mate

Chapter 18

I flop on our bed, giddy we got so much help. I can't believe how many packs are willing to help us. I mean I'm the worst person to work with, not to mention it's not their war.

"Rose I don't think I've ever seen you so happy." Xavier muses.

"Why wouldn't I be happy. Chances are that we'll win. And after we win, we'll find Fish, and me and you can be a normal couple."

"I wonder what that will be like?" He questions.

"What?" I ask.

"Us being a normal couple." He starts holding me in his arms. "I mean sure, will start a family, but what will it be like. Will we work in harmony, or will we keep clashing like we do now?"

"Family? Maybe in like fifteen years."

"You don't want kids?" He ask offended, and hurt.

"I don't know, I mean I'm so young. I will want kids, one day, but not now. Not while there is still so much to see and experience. But I know I don't want a ton. Maybe like one or two." I respond.

"One or two?"

"I know you come from a big family, but I don't. Kids are cute, don't get me wrong, but one or two is enough."

He's frowning, making the same face he uses on his pack when they do or say something he doesn't aprove of.

"I just wish you would have told me earlier, I always assumed we'd have a big family."

I frown back at him, I don't know why he would ever assume that. I never liked big families, and would never be the nurturing mom type. My mom wasn't and I guess it runs in the family.

I remember when I was little, the wild things my mom and me would do. She once let me dye my hair tips purple, just because I asked. No one ever let there children dye their hair in my old pack.

"I guess it doesn't really matter, we all know this is your choice." He mutters, getting up from the bed.

"Hey!" I yell, grapping his wrist and pulling him back. "Don't act like I won't give you a say. I mean if you want kids, I am willing to compromise, but I'm not going to if you won't."

He chuckles darkly. "Rose? Compromise? In the same sentence? I don't believe it."

I glare at him through my hair. He had never really been like this with me, sure he's been mad at me, but this wasn't anger. It was dissapointment, I wish he would get angry because this was just much worse.

"Rose, when you want to start a family, I'll be nearing forty human years."

"So what, human years don't apply to us. You'll only be like twenty seven in werewolf years."

"So then why wait to have a family? After they're all grown up we'll have all the time in the world to do as we please." He argues.

"Can't you see what children do to couples? After we have kids our world would revolve around them. Raising them to be what we think they should be, and never giving a damn about anything else. Xavier I'm a messed up person, who has a hard time keeping her life in order, let alone another human beings." I retort.

"You won't ever change your mind though. You say you'll compromise, but in your mind compromising is like submitting and you won't submit. I know from personal experience." He spits the words as though they burn his throat.

"Maybe I'm just not willing to be the perfect little mate because I don't want to. Maybe it isn't defiance, maybe it's just integrity."

He tries to walk away again, but I whip him around before he gets a chance. I wanted to scream and yell at him because he was being a jerk, but I know deep down that I was hurting him. Of course I was hurting him, I'd basically told him we'd never have his dream family.