𝐾𝑎𝑘𝑒𝑔𝑢𝑟𝑢𝑖 𝑋 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑒𝑟 ☙𝑂𝑛𝑒 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑡𝑠❧

𝑪𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒓!𝑺𝒂𝒚𝒂𝒌𝒂 𝑿 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒆𝒓

A/N: I wrote this when I was on a train so it it's a bit too cheesy or crap then I'm sorry

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"Y/N please listen to me, she meant nothing to me!" Sayaka shrieked desperately, tears already forming in her eyes. "I love you Y/N, I only love you!"

"Don't you get it, Sayaka?" You questioned, the tears you refused to shed in front of her burning behind your eyes. "The very thing that distinguishes us is that I would not hesitate to choose you in every lifetime, yet you would not choose me even in this one. I gave you my heart and my soul, though I know I cannot love you into loving me."

"So there you are," You said, gesturing to her weeping figure. "Spilling over with my love, and here I am, begging for even just a droplet of yours." Sighing, a feeling of defeat washed over you as your shoulders slumped.

Sayaka looked at you, regret flooding into her eyes. She never intended to make you feel this way, and it broke her to pieces seeing what she had done to you. "Y/N, please, I never-"

"But there must come a time," You interrupted, unable to meet her eyes, "When you realize that grieving someone is a lot less painful than pouring all of your love and soul into them, hoping for the day when they love you back, when you know it will never come."

You could hold back the tears no longer, and felt them spill over onto your cheeks. "And I know that I should not beg for love, but.. Just once, I wished for someone to be afraid of losing me as much as I feared losing them."

"I do fear losing you, Y/N. More than I have feared losing any other," Sayaka begged. "Please I'm begging you, it was a stupid mistake-"

"All I can think of," You said, cutting her off, "Is all of the promises you made to me. How you would always love me, how you would never leave me, or hurt me.. I wonder now why I ever believed you. After all, you are Sayaka Igarashi."

Sayaka stumbled back a step, as if the words you spoke had physically assaulted her. She wanted to argue, to beg, but she was stunned into silence.

"I am at fault as well, though," You continued. "I gave too much of myself to you. I feel everything much too deeply and intensely for me to understand, let alone you. I didn't guard myself at all against you, and too easily I gave my heart away to you, believing you'd treasure it, treasure me."

"You are my world, Y/N," Sayaka cried, finally finding her words. "Nothing in this universe and beyond will ever mean as much to me as you do. Please, I will do anything to earn your forgiveness and regain your trust, anything!"

"I've not trusted anyone the way I trusted you, Sayaka!" You argued. "Yet somehow, you made it easy for me to let you in, as if it was effortless for you. You crashed into my life, and became my knight in shining armor."

Her eyes were glassy as she spoke. "I know what I did has hurt you deeply, and I know that things won't be the same as they were before. But please, that... That wench, she was nothing to me! Nothing more than a mistake I swear upon lady luck that I will never make again."

"Every promise you have ever made was a lie." You said flatly. "You weren't a knight in shining armor, you were a counterfeit. You never meant to stay, and you never meant it the countless times you said you loved me."

"I did mean it!" She shouted desperately. "Every single word!"

You met her eyes, feeling white-hot anger seep through the waves of hurt. "You took my heart and you shattered it into pieces, not caring if I'd ever be able to put it back together again! And I can't comprehend why? What could I have done to make you abandon me so ruthlessly? All I ever wanted was to love you, and I did, with an intensity that I was terrified would tear me apart. And now, it finally has."

"Don't do this," Sayaka wailed, dropping to her knees. "I beg of you, please, don't do this."

Turning away, you balled your fists, unable to look at her any longer. "I've never felt so utterly betrayed and used. You selfishly took all of the good parts of me, so that you could be happy, and left me with a mess you had no intention of helping me clean up. I just.. I don't understand why I wasn't enough. I took a chance on you, and you destroyed me."

"Anything you want me to say, I will say. Anything you want me to do, I will do. Please, I cannot bear to going back to an existence you are not a part of," Sayaka whimpered, her heart breaking. "I'm truly sorry, please believe how sorry I am."

"I want to forgive you," You said softly, resignation taking over the anger. You felt numb. "I want to hold on to this idea of us, foolish as it is. I want to believe that you realize what it is you've done and are truly sorry."

"Then do it," She pleaded, desperation filling her chest and making it uncomfortably tight. As she spoke, she couldn't stop his voice from cracking. "Please Y/N, my love, don't leave me."

You shook your head. "I can't, Sayaka, can you not see that I can't? I look at you now, and where I once felt love, all I can feel now is this stabbing hurt in my heart and this deeply overwhelming sense of loss in my soul. I don't see how it's possible for me to ever open myself to you again."

"But maybe this is how it was meant to be. Maybe I was never meant to give myself to you the way I did, maybe my heart never belonged to you and our lives weren't meant to intertwine forever. We were but one small moment in a life filled with billions of moments, and while the time I had with you pierced me more deeply than anything I've ever experienced, it wasn't meant to last."

If her heart wasn't shattered before, upon hearing these words and knowing that there was no way for her to make amends, Sayaka felt irreparably broken. She had nothing left to say, no arguments left to make, no final pleas. Hanging her head in resignation, she sobbed hard.

"Goodbye, Sayaka."