║⤠ 𝚌𝚑𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚒𝚌𝚕𝚎𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚖𝚢𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚌 𝚍𝚎𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚎𝚜 ⤟ ║

|+| a talk with the moon |+|

I am extremely bored and also extremely depressed time to take it out on my OCs <33

this is the first oneshot in a small series of oneshots I'm working on!! the next one is called "reunion?" so look out for that lol

fair warning: this is kinda angsty. Xena vents about being emotionally conflicted & talks abt her separation from her husband. it ends in gay fluff, tho!!

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[ a talk with the moon ]

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"too slow~!"

with one swing, the head of a god-eater went flying across the clearing with a shriek. it was promptly trampled by another god-eater, running straight for the sun deity.

a few quick swings of her golden heavyblade, and the job was done; the forest clearing was littered with severed body parts and burning flesh, trees and foliage splattered with blood.

the sun god inhaled deeply, black blood running off her chin. a small, cocky smile stretched across her face.

"I was hoping for more of a fight," chirped the blonde, stabbing the end of her sword into the ground. "but it's not like they would have stood a chance anyways."

pale green eyes glanced about the area.

...

near silence.

then a low sigh, followed by the god plopping down onto the grass and burying her face in her hands. golden blood ran down her right hand.

"it's getting worse," she mumbled, "and I don't know how much longer I can ignore it, Alta."

"I know, Xena."

Xena looked up from her hands, tears pooling in her good eye.

the clover in the grass below had become stained with gold.

"look at me, please. your eye is bleeding again."

the blonde quietly looked to her right, biting back tears. she squeezed her eye shut as the moon deity moved her eyepatch back into place, dabbing at the golden blood on her cheek with a cloth.

"thank you..." she mumbled, moving back to stare blankly into the bloodstained grass. the other gave a quiet hum of acknowledgement.

silence.

...

"I miss him, Alta."

her voice was near silent.

"I miss him, and I feel like an awful girlfriend because of it."

"oh?"

"I mean -" she began to cry. "I mean, what kind of person still cries over their ex-husband? it's been years now, hasn't it? I should be over him. I should accept that he left."

"but you can't."

"no, I can't! and that's the worst part!"

the sun god slouched into her hands, covering her face, almost ashamed. "what kind of girlfriend am I? I'm so bad at moving on that I can't - I can't forget him, even after years of us being apart, even after getting into another relationship. I want to hate him for leaving but I don't. I hope he's okay, I hope he's happy, I hope he's alive, and I forgive him - I forgive him, but by the gods I miss him so much."

the clearing went silent for a moment, save for the sun god's muffled sobs.

"he was a huge part of my life, you know?!" she continued, hiccuping. "but now he's gone and...it feels like the wound is still fresh when it should be healed by now."

"..."

"I just...I...I feel bad for missing someone who was such a huge influence on me as a person." she sniffled, rubbing at her eye. "like...yes, I know I shouldn't be putting myself to such a high standard. I can't expect myself to just...move on and forget someone like him in such a short time frame. I- I mean, 2-4 years is kind of a long time frame, but I'm immortal - it feels like it was only yesterday for me."

she began to gesture wildly as she talked, sniffling between sentences.

"j- just because I know how to treat a wound and stitch it up and stuff doesn't stop me from feeling pain when I get really hurt - that's what you said, right?" she asked, turning to look at the moon deity. "just because I kinda know most of the steps to moving on from a relationship and how I should treat myself doesn't stop me from grieving and hating myself when it happens. and...and I know the fact that he was such a big part of me for so long plays into that analogy. I just know it. I can't put it together but I know it."

she leaned back with a huge inhale, tilting her head skyward with closed eyes. after a few seconds, she turned a bit to look at the moon deity beside her, slouching again.

"...I'm sorry for ranting, Alta," Xena muttered. "I've been doing that a lot lately."

"don't apologize. I'm glad you're becoming more comfortable with me. that means I'm doing something right," hummed Altalune, looking at her girlfriend with a gentle smile. "I'm always happy to listen. and I'm happy you're finally remembering what I tell you, too."

the sun deity chuckled a bit, leaning on the other's shoulder. "I'm trying my best, and...I think that's enough, for the time being. you're a great girlfriend with great advice."

"you know, when you've been alive since the dawn of time, you tend to pick up some good tips."

Xena chuckled, rubbing her good eye.

"...thank you, Alta, for everything you've done for me. is there...anything I can do to pay you back? I can take up your duties for you if you want?" she hummed, tilting her head back to get a better look at the blue-haired girl.

"for now, you can pay me back by staying here for a little while longer. we have a bit of time before we have to return to the Ether."

the sun deity hummed softly.

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"h...hey, Alta?"

"mmh?"

"what're we gonna do about the shier whia corpses?"

"...Sorrel can fix it later."

"he's gonna complain. a lot."

"I know. I can handle it. probably."

"probably?"

"probably."

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that's all~ look out for the next one!