Me and my feelings

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I've totally forgotten about writing this book/diary! I wrote it so young!

When Frank Ocean came out he wrote that when he was reminiscing on the songs he wrote all about his past relationships. He said 'i realised they were written in a language i did not yet speak' and even though i'm not coming out (because I think coming out is unneeded and causes more harm than good in society) I understand what he means

When I started writing this. I was a kid trying to understand these deep rooted feelings in a cool edgy way.

I loved writing and i loved the beauty in very depressing things like movies and books because it gave me a type of comfort and dug me deeper into the pits of my body. Reading and relating to someone depressed made me feel a cool type of warm. Am i romanticising mental illness right now? In a way yes because in a way it gives me that same relaxing feeling of romantic movies. Does that make me a horrible human being? Maybe idk

I read one poetry book and it was the type of poetry that ppl call "instagram caption poetry" and all of a sudden i was gonna be the next relatable, depressed teenager.

Yes i am still a teenager shhh!! But i am now much more fluent in my new updated language. This language is more grown and more experienced.

So goodbye ig