Me and my feelings

I have no friends

I have no friends but socially it looks like i have 20

People think i have friends, but they're not real friends

Real friends don't leave you out then talk about what they did.

Real friends don't plan things in front of you and don't invite you.

Real friends don't forget about your plans.

Real friends care about your feelings.

Or maybe it's me i've been a cluts lately, i really have.

I've been talking shit a lot so i've been putting out negative energy and maybe it's ricocheting back idk.

I'm not asking for much all i want is one true friend any pls one i can trust and feel comfortable around and confident.

Pls just one good friend would make my life easier.