save me

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Writers pov

If he refuses to let me meet my son I'll kill myself.

what even is the point of me being alive, I have no purpose in life except being a pawn for their revenge or a peice of meat for their lust, or a trophy for xavin, I feel like an animal being caged and trained by xavin, I tried my best to continue bearing this hell for the sake of my family and my son, but my life is insignificant it'll make no difference to anyone if die.

She raised her eyes and looked at herself in the mirror for the first time in 5 months, she gasped stumbling backwards,

there wasn't much difference in her physique after all xavin made sure to feed her well, but her eyes looked empty, she looked older, her hair were a lot less in volume, thanks to all the stress.

"Rose?" he called concerned and she hid the blade back to its place and walked out,

"you ready for bed?" he asked and she nodded.

she rested her head on his hard chest and he held her with his both hands covering them with the blanket,

"Xavin?"

"hmm?" he asked his eyes still closed, she could hear his heart beat, she rubbed her cheek on his chest while rubbed her back and arms.

"I want something"

"just name it love" he said, he felt so peaceful, with the dim lights, complete silence, and his love as close as possible to him, Rose was all he needed to come home and feel relaxed, she put him in a state of tranquil.

"I want eth...ahem I mean dimitri" he stopped cuddling her and stayed still,

she bit her lip praying to God.

"Xavin?" she finally asked looking at him her chin resting at his chest.

"Damien won't allow it Rose" he finally answered.

"but he is my son"

"he was, now it is Irina and His, and he is my boss i have bo authority over him"

her eyes welled up she was so frustrated,

"that's not how it works" she said in a whisper and cried.

"go to sleep"

"NO" she screamed and he opened his eyes looking at her startled.

"I GAVE BIRTH TO HIM!"

"Rose, don't make me..."

"Don't make you what? take away my books, leave me alone in here? shut the window? WHAT ELSE?" she started getting hyper with each passing second,

every ounce of anger she shoved back in herself, bottled up inside her, was brimming up, spilling from the edges, threatening to flow our like a flood.

"Stop it" he warned

"HE IS MY SON!!!" she screamed pulling her hair, ripping some of u out of her scalp.

"I cut open my stomach to give him life"

"Look at this" she tore her t-shirt exposing her sagging stomach, her love handles, her stretch marks

"I willingly did this to myself for him, and you people just come in and decide that he is not my son?" she asked standing up fron the bed rubbing her face, pulling her hair, pacing the space, she looked manic, xavin reached for the injection he keeps in his side drawer.

"You guys have no heart, Okay assume if my father did kill yours, WHAT DID I EVER DO TO YOU?????" she screamed sobbing hysterically.

"Either my son or death" she whispered loud enough for him to hear befor he could react his eyes widened when she ran and locked herself in the bathroom.

"ROSE!!!!" he screamed and broke the door in one push.

"ROSE!!!!!!!!!" he screamed as she sat there with her wrist slit open.

he cried,

"Rose what did you do my love" he held her face in his hands,

she smiled faintly and touched his cheek with her blood stained hand.

"thank you for caring for me, but I can't go on like this" she managed to say with much difficulty.

"please don't hurt my son" she said before she closed her eyes,

"Rose no" he sobbed hugging her,

"you can't do this to me Rose" he sobbed.

"I NEED AN AMBULANCE" he screamed at top of his lungs.

"give me chance Rose please don't do this to me, I'll kill myself too" he sobbed resting his forehead on hers.

short chapter I know but there'll be another one tonight so yeah

brb