Painkiller|ws

Chapter 17

Joshua dreaded the moment he made eye contact with Wonwoo after explaining everything. The hands around him had either accidentally or intentionally fallen. Joshua had no idea how he managed to tell his story to Wonwoo, even with all the stuttering and hiccups in between his sobs.

But he had. Joshua had managed to show Wonwoo the rawest part of him. He broke eye contact almost immediately, not only because eye contact was too much for him to handle, but at that moment, he was scared to look at Wonwoo's eyes in fear of seeing pity.

Joshua didn't want the look of amused adoration that Wonwoo always looked at him with to change to one of constant pity. The same way everyone once had altered their perception of Joshua. "Pl-Please say something" and Wonwoo didn't instantly, he leaned towards Joshua before wrapping both his arms around Joshua in a tight hug.

Joshua's head automatically pushed into Wonwoo's chest, settling there as he sobbed silently. "It's not your fault" Wonwoo's voice sounded cracked, but still he managed to fix it before Joshua noticed.

"It's not your fault that happened to you, and it doesn't change anything" Wonwoo ran his hands through Joshua's hair as he let him cry on his shoulder. "Don't cry. Why are you crying over some dickhead?" Joshua looked up slightly to see even Wonwoo's eyes welling up slightly.

"I'm sorry I wasn't there to break his bones" Joshua lifted his hands that were hanging limp beside him for however long he'd been crying before wrapping them around Wonwoo's neck and pressing himself closer to the boy. "You're here now" Joshua didn't know where his confidence was coming from. He left small kisses on Wonwoo's cheek before trailing them to his lips.

"I trust you" Joshua said lacing his fingers with Wonwoo's before pulling the boy with him as he got up. "I want to be- I want to be with you tonight. I want to..." Joshua let the sentence drag on as he unbuttoned Wonwoo's shirt slowly.

"So much for movie night" Wonwoo glanced at the tv that had Minions all ready to be played. Wonwoo didn't mind the idea, quite the opposite. He craved to touch Joshua in ways he hadn't been able to before, but after hearing how the older's first time had quite literally ruined his life, Wonwoo didn't know if it was right for him to rush it.

"Are you sure?" Wonwoo licked his lips as he looked at Joshua clinging to his shirt. "I know I am, I said it...I- I trust you" Wonwoo held Joshua's hand tighter before leading Joshua to his room.

Wonwoo wasted no time kissing Joshua again, holding the petite waist the latter possessed in such a delicate way that Joshua couldn't help but melt. Wonwoo made sure to lock the door before softly pushing Joshua onto the bed.

"Was he any good at least?" Wonwoo couldn't help but ask the question before he attached his lips to Joshua's collarbone. "N-No" Wonwoo smirked against Joshua's skin as he sucked harder, making sure he left a mark and getting a soft moan from the one below him.

Wonwoo made sure to look at Joshua, trying to sense any discomfort as he played with the hem of the boy's sweater. "I want to" Joshua repeated once more, quickly reading Wonwoo as he played with his hair.

Wonwoo placed small kisses on Joshua's stomach before carefully pulling the sweater up over Joshua's head. "How sensitive are you?" Wonwoo traced his tongue against Joshua's stomach, seeing him flinch in pleasure below him. "Sensitive" Wonwoo chuckled lowly as he tried kissing lower, watching as Joshua's head shot up.

"I can tell" Wonwoo slipped his fingers into Joshua's jeans before pulling them down swiftly. "I can already see you're going to squirm when I kiss here" Wonwoo was right in his judgement as Joshua moaned quite loudly and slapped a hand over his own mouth when Wonwoo pressed his lips to Joshua's thighs.