[DISCONTINUED] Shut-in Astronomer | Varian x Reader (Self-insert)

Chapter 8 - Memories

"...What have I done...?"

I leaned against a wall and perched myself down on the cold, stone floor--knees close to my chest.

I buried my head deep inside my arms. I began to shake from my quiet sobs.

"...What have I done..? What can I do..?"

I felt Ruddiger settle next to me--comforting me.. in a way.

"...You're the only one I haven't lost, buddy... c'mere.."

He hopped and curled up in my lap, my tears now drying.

I sighed.

I needed to follow through with this plan. I needed..

...Rapunzel.

With (Y/N)

It was around evening by the time I'd gotten back to the Corona castles--and up to my room. Cass wasn't here yet.

I sat near the edge of my bed and nightstand. I felt something--the aura of something--looming above me.

The necklace.

I grabbed ahold of the jewel that laid on my nightstand.

The purple necklace he gave me at the science expo.

I caressed the jewel he named after me. I was unable to hold in anything. I didn't want to alarm anyone who happened to be nearby. I broke out into sobs--quiet sobs.

(I'd Give Anything - Mandy Moore)

I know we've grown apart it breaks my heart in two.

I miss your company, the closeness we once knew.

I won't pretend to know just what you're going through,

But I'd give anything for you.

Yes, I'd give anything, to relive everything with you.

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"Hey, so.. what--essentially--are stars..?"

"The books I've read about them all say they're bright spheres of gas. Each is about as big as... a state to a country. They're just specks in the sky because of their distance. Some stars--see, some are so far away, you can't see them-! Almost lightyears away..."

"...What are lightyears..-?"

"I'm glad you asked, Var-!"

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"(Y/N)--! Wh..What did you do-?!"

"What do you mean?"

"....Look at him."

"..He looks like.. a raccoon."

"Yeah, an overfed one. I left you--for two days, (Y/N)-!"

"I couldn't help it-! He had a convincing face..."

"Sigh... how many apples did you feed him, anyway..?"

".....Four baskets."

"(Y/N)-!"

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