Angst
Warning!: toxic relationship
Permanent despair Au (despair never ended)
Hajime has been with Gundham for a while even before despair
Izuru and hajime are brothers
The brothers never fell into despair but was separated by junko to make them feel despair
Hajime and gundham's relationship has always been kinda toxic
Gundham went to far and lied to hajime and made hajime hate izuru
Izuru was taken by junko and was put into a spiral of despair which caused him to hate everything except despair and junko
Inspired by an edit audio i heard and by the song 'i hate everything about you' by three days grace (this song is so brutal but i love it 😭)
Hajime pov
Its been so long since all this despair started. At least a couple months I think, the only reason im not in despair is because my brother izuru. We've just been in the dorms of hopes peak because junko had it rebuilt as a "school of despair". Its... Not fun. At all.
Speaking of that class starts soon... What class? Murder class. That's what class.
I got up and put on my black uniform shirt (long sleeve) and green tie and black pants and shoes then head to the living room then dorms-
SHATTER! (Sound effect not hajime saying that 😌)
I went tumbling backwards... A glass vase was thrown at my face... I felt the blood go down face and the sharp shards of glass stuck in my face. I looked up to see mikan and Izuru looking at me, worried.
They helped me get up and I saw kaz and kuroi throwing things at each other while yelling
Before the start of despair kuroi and kaz were dating but after despair kuroi became really easy to break down and be more sensitive and REALLY angry and his anxiety went through the roof. Severely.
(Hi, I have a character concept and he has really bad anxiety so if I write something wrong or you have some pointers on how to write that correctly and not offend anyone please tell me in the comments!)
Kaz became really angry too but he's got bad anger issues, say something he doesn't like you get a hammer to the head.
Kuroi was pulling his hair with tears in his eyes and an angry expression "SHUT UP, SHUT UP, SHUT UP, YOU MISTAKE OF MY LIFE!" He shouted as kaz growled "IM THE MISTAKE OF YOUR LIFE? YOUR THE WORST THING TO EVER HAPPEN TO ME!" He retorted
Mikan was taking care of glass and blood while Izuru tried to calm them down
"SHUT UP IZURU THIS ISN'T YOUR PROBLEM GO DEAL WITH YOUR PATHETIC BROTHER!" Kaz shouted. Izuru stared at him anger growing in his eyes before punching him, sending him flying to the wall
"Say anything like that about hajime again and I'll KILL you!" He said before looking at me patched up by mikan who smiled softly at me "it was nothing severe thankfully" mikan, other than Izuru and... "MY PRINCE WHAT HAPPENED?!" My boyfriend gundham.. Are they only ones who care for me. "Kuroi and kaz got into a fight, kuroi threw a vase but kaz dodged as hajime walked out his room and was in the wrong place, wrong time." Fuyuhiko said leaning on the wall were kaz laid in front of, knocked out cold.
"WHY YOU..." I grabbed my lover and did my best to calm him. Let me place a slight example of how our relationship is.
He is a dragon who killed someone for treasure, me being that treasure that like a dragon he will now hoard until he dies and by hoard I mean 'protect' even if it hurts me.
I love him though and he loves me but he hates Izuru. I've tried multiple times to get them to like each other but... It never worked.
"Lets just get to class my love" I said calmly as he looked at me then back at them before pouting and grumbling "fine."
After classes
3rd persons pov
"Izuru?!" The brunette called in the dorms as he searched for his brother "IZURU!!!" He called...
And called.
And called.
Nothing.
"Honey, your being hysterical." Gundham said blankly as he looked at the brunette. "But...-" "hey hajime... Im so sorry" Sonia said tapping his shoulder and making the brunette face her "for what?" She held up a note
Dear hajime,
Im leaving, I hate it here, I hate our classmates, our teachers and everyone
Including you. I hate you the most. That is why I am leaving this wretched place. To get away from you
From izuru kamakura.
The brunette teared up "this has to be a joke right? Izuru would never leave me alone right... RIGHT?!" He screamed as he looked at his lover before running up to him and grabbing him by the shirt with despair clear on his face "no. I don't believe so my love." He held hajime at the waist and hugged him "I promise I'll never leave you..." He said holding the now red eyed brunette close "thank you Gundham...." He cried more and more
5 months later
Hajime held an axe close to his side as he walked to his dorm only to bump into someone... "Watch where your going dip- izuru...?!" He yelled as he suddenly held the axe close to his own face in shock "hajime." He said blankly as he looked at him
The brunette was shocked and oddly enough... Scared. "WHY ARE YOU HERE?! I THOUGHT YOU LEFT!" He shouted angrily as tears started to form "I did. Kind of."
SWING!
The black haired male had his eyes closed tightly at the sudden flinch of his brother "I DON'T CARE! GO AWAY!" He moved the axe closer to izurus face "or I'll make you." "Hmm..." He grabbed the brunettes wrist "fine.-"
Make me.
Hiiii! Hows the new year going for you all? :)
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