The Wicked Liar 3: The Lying Order

Chapter 09: Sunset

I will be damned to just believe her.

When I looked at Erica's angelic and sweet face, I want to drop to my knees and beg her to love me but there's just something suspicious about her.

At some point, naiisip ko na pinaglalaruan niya lang ako bilang ganti sa nagawa ko sa kanya dati but most of me believes na talagang gusto niya ako since everytime we kiss and make love I can feel that desperate longing from her na para bang she's destined to do it all along. At naniniwala akong hindi madaling mag fake ng feelings. I know her happiness is real.

When I woke last time and found out na wala siya sa tabi ko, I was doomed. Hindi ko ma imagine yung nararamdaman ko kanina but I was definitely scared. Nabasa ko naman yung note na iniwan niya pero hindi pa din nun naalis yung takot ko. All I thought was her na baka kasama na naman yung Louie na yun. Fuck, I dont actually know why I am this jealous of him gayong wala naman akong karapatan pero ayoko lang talagang may ibang humahawak sa kanya.

I dont share. Unfair man kung iisipin but I dont want to share her. Ayokong may ibang humahalik at humahawak sa kanya even though they're just friendly gesture.

Now that she's here with me, hindi ko na alam kung kakayanin ko pang mawala siya. I know I am not talking any sense here since dati itinulak ko siya palayo but now that we're together, I can make things up with her.

Lalo na ngayon that I am certain na kumpleto na ako. Hindi ko pa man maipaliwanag kung bakit pakiramdam ko siya ang kumumpleto sakin but I know one day magkakaroon na ng mga sagot sa tanong ko. I know this butterlies in my stomach and my racing heartbeats have sense.

If only she would allow us to talk about the past..

"Now you're acting like a husband" she wrapped my arms around my waist and feel her lips on my back. Nakabili na siya ng damit ko yet wala pa din akong suot na pang itaas since I am cooking. Nagluluto ako ng adobong manok para sa lunch namin bago pumunta sa sinasabi ko sa kanya.

"Maupo ka na lang muna dun. Matatapos na ako dito" I told her dahil nadi distract ako sa ginagawa ko. Yung mga kamay niya pa naman kung saan saan nakakarating. Hindi ko din mapigilan kiligin sa sinabi niya.

"Erica.." saway ko dahil yung kamay niya nakakalayo na masyado. Tinawanan niya lang ako and kissed the tip of my ear

"Ang dali mo lang palang ma turn on. Maybe I should give Cathy some pointers on how to seduce you"

Kung hindi lang ako pinangungunahan ng makamundong pagnanasa sa pinaggagagawa niya ngayon, maiinis ako sa pagbanggit niya sa pangalan ni Cathy. "Stop it" I said half heartedly cause part of me wants to stop her pero may side pa din na gusto siyang magpatuloy.

"You really want me to stop?" tanong pa niya in a seductive voice kaya wala akong nagawa kung di umiling na lang.

Sakto naman na tapos na yung niluluto ko kaya pinatay ko na yung stove at hinarap siya. Hinuli ko yung dalawang kamay niya and hold it together then kissed her torridly tutal mukhang ito naman ang gusto niya.

I kiss her with all my heart attach to it. That as if this is something will hold me to this life. To her. Itong ginagawa namin.. Itong set up namin.. Hindi ko alam kung gaano to magtatagal. I know one way or another she'll be gone again but for once, just this once, I want to make the best of everything hangga't ganito kami.

When we need the feel to breathe doon ko lang siya binitawan. Nagpakawala siya ng magkakasunod na hininga habang nakasubsob ang mukha niya sa dibdib ko. I hugged her tightly and showered her face with tiny kisses

"Make sure na masarap yang niluto mo. I am really hungry" she said laughing and freed from my grip.

The place I am planning to go with her is not that special but my heart is whispering to me that this is a perfect time para pumunta ng beach and watch the sunset while giving her a kiss. I dont know kung paano pumasok yun sa isipan ko but the idea just sprouted and it feels so right. Sakto naman na may alam akong beach sa Batangas na anytime pwede namin puntahan.