a series of [un]fortunate events || a wenclair collection [explicit]

28. scared [explicit]

A/N: So, I haven't really done a chapter detailing Enid's reaction to the whole Crackstone incident and how she truly felt about almost losing Wednesday. This will be kinda angsty and deal with some heavy themes like depression, self-harm and a small mention of suicide. Be careful reading!

Enid's POV

It was hard for me to really express what was going through my head when Crackstone and Thornhill attacked the school and Wednesday was captured. When I had to deal with Tyler, it wasn't just to prove to my mother that I could wolf out, but it was to show that I could handle myself. All I could think about was if Wednesday was okay, and the fact that I didn't know anything was the scariest part of all. Even after we had hugged and shared our first kiss, I never really confronted her or myself about that night.

"Enid. Something is on your mind. What is it."

I don't know why I was so angry inside, I mean for Goddess sakes, Wednesday was standing in front of me, safe and sound, but I was just... angry. I was trying to hold in my feelings, I didn't want to snap at Wednesday... not her..

"It's... why didn't you tell me everything that happened with you and Crackstone..."

Wednesday stared at me, and my anger was increasing... 

"Because I was able to handle the situation. I did not wish to worry you."

I scoffed.

"Yeah, well... thanks for that.."

Wednesday was genuinely confused at my reactions. I don't blame her, to be honest. I took a deep breath because I knew what was going to happen if I didn't. Wednesday walked up closer to me, pecking my lips with hers softly. Something she would never do before, but she was concerned as to why I Was acting this way...

"Enid... please tell me how you are feeling. I promise to listen and answer as best as I possibly can."

"What happened with you and Crackstone after you got captured..."

Wednesday took a breath.

"When Thornhill caught me off guard, she not only sliced open my palm but she allowed Crackstone to stab me straight through my stomach. I was... I was dying. If it was not for my ancestor Goody Addams saving me at the last second, I would have well and truly died. I did not tell you because I did not want to worry you, especially following your encounter with Tyler. Which was... very brave and arousing to see. How would I be able to tell you that I was on the verge of death? Even after I was shot with my own arrow, many things flew through my mind, a continuous thought of wanting to die, to be free of this hellish world because I knew that you would not be able to look at me the same way. And that... that scares me more than anything.."

"How do you think I feel, Wednesday?! No one else really gives a fuck about me except for Yoko, and even then, it's not like anyone else pays me any attention! Do you think I just walk around all happy all the time? No! I do it because it gets rid of the bad thoughts I have every fucking day!"

Wednesday looked down at the ground. Any other time, she would've lashed out at me for yelling at her, but I was bottling this up for days... 

"Have you... do you hate me, Enid...?"

God, the way she asked me that question in that broken voice of hers...

"I hate myself... I don't have anyone else, Wednesday... my mother is constantly on my ass and I can't take anymore... After Tyler attacked me, I had a split second thought of just letting him kill me, because who would miss me? You wouldn't know, and you would probably move on to Bianca or Yoko or someone else... my mother wouldn't even care..."

"Stop..."

I didn't even hear her at first.

"What?"

"I Said stop... I don't... I can't stand to hear you talk about yourself like this, Enid... it hurts... I care about you more than you will ever realize or understand... I..."

Wednesday started to cry, and then I started to cry too...

"E-Enid... please don't ever repeat this to anyone.... besides my father, Pugsley and Thing... I swore to myself I would never let myself feel any sort of emotion because it would be overwhelming, but loving you is something I am unashamed of... I... f-fuck... I don't want to lose you... that was why I let Goody heal me, it was because of you. I would do anything for you... I would do everything to keep you.."

I looked at Wednesday, and her expression was just... it broke me more than anything in my life...

"W-Willa..."

"No.. I'm not done... Enid, you mean everything to me... when we first met, even though you annoyed me, I could not get enough of your presence... you stayed by my side even though I tried to remove you from my life. I was lonely when you left our dorm room and I wanted to do everything I could to bring you back... I was happy when you returned that it took everything I had not to jump on you and hug you.. I would've liked that... I love you.." 

I was afraid to speak, all I wanted was to hear Wednesday... this was the most she's shown me her more vulnerable side, and I felt... relieved... I was so fucking scared of losing her... I told Yoko that I was very close to ending my life after I left our dorm room and I just spent hours crying in her shoulder... Suddenly, Wednesday kissed me, and it caught me off guard when she held me close. She didn't let me go at all as she cried into my chest... 

"E-Enid..."

She latched onto me, and I held her closer to me.

"W-Willa..."

Wednesday just placed her lips onto mine, holding my neck in place. God.. it felt so good kissing her.. 

"Please don't leave me..."

She practically whispered it in my ear... I kissed her deeply, melting from her smile...

"Only when we are at death's embrace, mi amor... I will never leave you.. not again.."

And that was all we needed at that moment... 

E N i D.

A/N: A little bit angsty before the last few chapters, but I never actually wrote how Enid was truly feeling that night, and I wanted to try and write it out. I'm thinking I might end Season 1 with possibly 30 or 32 chapters and put the other sequels like the livestreaming one for Season 2 because I want to expand upon that particular storyline, maybe make it the season opener. 

A/N 2: The next chapter will be stink, part 3, btw. I really need some fart jokes lol hope y'all are okay with more fart foolishness haha