Amongst the worst

Greyson

It felt as thought something inside me had completely shattered.

I couldn't breathe.

My chest feels so tight and my throat is closing up and I can't breathe.

It's like there was a hole in my chest, a big hole that's been ripped open inside me.

And it's filling up. With so much pain and loss and I can't take it.

Greyson...

I watched as the building came tumbling down so fast, and Greyson was strapped to the chair and he couldn't move.

He couldn't save himself in time and the building had crushed him.

And I swear I let out the most excruciating sound, agony ripping through me as I watch my brother...or where he once sat. 

My vision is so blurred I can't see, and my lungs won't won't expand.

This can't be real.

I feel my legs give way as I collapse to the ground, unable to do anything but cry and scream.

The tears just kept coming, streaming down my face too fast.

"No, no, no NO!" I choke out

My father was still alive. And my brother wasn't.

My father could move. Greyson couldn't.

As I look to my father through blurred vision I swear I see something else in his expression.

He actually looked sad?

I don't care. He killed him.

If he hasn't strapped him to the chair, Greyson coil of saved himself.

No it's my fault.

My fault.

"He's your son! He's your first son why would you do that! Why would-" it was as if I wasn't able to say anything else, everything was just a blur

My shaky legs run towards the building.

I frantically search through it, sobs and screams rip through my throat.

"Please, please. Greyson answer me damnit! You're alive! Please....please don't do this" I cry out

Then I turn my gaze back to my father, he stood towering over the building. A blank expression mixed with a little glimmer of guilt.

I couldn't believe it.

The man in front of me was a monster who didn't care about it anything, but looking at him right now...

He loved him.

He loved Greyson.

He never would of killed him.

No matter, what's done is done. And he deserves to hurt.

"You...you did this. YOU KILLED HIM!" I scream "I'm gonna kill you"

"I-I didn't mean for it. I'm-" he stutters on his words

"SHUT UP!" I yell back "Just shut up"

"You're not going to remember any of this anyway" he says

"What? Of course I will, my brother just died!" I say, holding back a sob

"You haven't asked about what just happened" he says "to that building, how you made it fall and how you just killed my trained soldiers"

I feel the bile rise in my throat.

I had almost forgotten.

"Well you see Rose, I've been looking to tell you for a while now. It seems as though Greyson had already figured it out, before...you know" he says, his voice composed

He was completely back to normal?

His son just died, and he lost interest that quickly.

"You see, there's a family curse. I'm sure you must know by now that you are the one it affects" he must see my instant confusion so he continues "You won't die if that's what you're thinking. But you killed all these people because there is something demonic inside you. It entered your body and has been in your mind for a while now."

The symptoms...

Of course..

"Symptoms like nosebleeds, dizziness..." I say under my breathe

"Exactly, it enters your mind through pain, and the symptoms of it started after Aiden was killed. It's power it shown again through pain. When Daisy died..."

"So, you're telling me you caused me all this pain because you wanted this thing to enter my body? You...you used me." I felt the tears gather up again

"You don't understand, you ruined me. You made me watch everyone I love die! My mother, my aunt, my uncle, Sam, Aiden, Daisy and now...YOU KILLED GREYSON! You killed the people I love most in this world, because you wanted to use the power I have for your own good? You-how could you?" My voice breaks

I break.

"It had to be done" he says with no remorse in his tone

"Don't you want to know what will happen to you?"

I don't reply to that

"The demonic spirit eats away in your mind, it feeds off of memories. Soon enough you won't remember anything"

I freeze.

The realisation suddenly hits me and I don't even want to believe it.

I'm going to forget about everyone.

I'm not going to remember the only people I have left.

"W-what?" Is all I manage to say

"Like I told you before, you were doomed the second you were born"

My legs shake so hard I fall to the ground, covering  face with my hands.

He can not watch me break like this.

I won't let him.

But the words keep repeating in my head.

I'm going to forget everyone

And eventually, they will forget me.