My silent mother Volume 1

Chapter Seventy Two Adjustments

February 23rd

(Trivia Vanille) It was around 3:30 in the morning when I woke up to the sound of crying and so I sat up on the couch and I then walked over to the bassinet and I then picked up my Maclin and I held him in my arms and I then asked What's wrong honey and when my nose smelled the air and I thought to myself I guess that answers my question and I then carried Maclin to the nursery and once inside I then placed him on the changing table and I expertly changed his diaper.

After I had finished changing Maclin, I then walked back over to the rocking chair and I sat down and I fed Maclin and as I was feeding him I heard the sound of feet entering and I then looked over to the doorway and I saw Mackenzie standing in the doorway and she then whispered Nene is that you? I then said yes it's me sweetie, Why are you awake hon? Mackenzie then said I had a nightmare nene, I then said why don't you come over here hun.

Mackenzie then walked over to me and when she reached the rocking chair she then asked who dis nene as she pointed at Macklin? And I said with a soft chuckle this is Maclin your uncle sweetie and Mackenzie looked at me with a puzzled look on her face before she said Otay Nene, By this point Maclin had stopped suckling on my breast and he then fell asleep against my chest and I then walked over to the crib and I gently placed him into it while I talked with Mackenzie.

I then walked back over to Mackenzie and I then knelt down to her level and I then asked Do you need to be changed hun and Mackenzie shyly nodded her head and I said come here little one and I then gently picked her up and I then carried her over to the changing table and I then quickly changed her soaked diaper, After about a minute I was finished changing Mackenzie into a fresh diaper and I then picked her up off the table and I then gently placed her back on the floor.

I then walked over to the toddler bed and I took a seat on it and I then patted the bed and Mackenzie walked over to the bed and she took a seat next to me on the bed and I then asked Do you want to talk about your nightmare? And she shook her head no and I then said its that bad huh? Mackenzie nodded her head.

I said why don't you try and fall asleep while I hold you hun, Mackenzie then said in a whisper I'm scared nene and I said as I brushed her hair with my hand I know sweetie, let me tell you a secret and Mackenzie said what's da secwet and I said a nightmare's our brains showing us something that we are most scared of but they aren't real, I then said your mommy used to have many a nightmare when she was a little girl and she would cry until I went to check on her and everytime it broke my heart to see her suffering with nightmares, I eventually bought her a dream catcher and I placed it in her room.

After I had placed the dream catcher in her bedroom her nightmares became less frequent, and so your mommy was able to get a full nights rest most nights. What I'm trying to say is that nightmares are temporary and not permanent. I could feel Mackenzie breathing start to even out and her head laid against my chest and I rubbed her back while I sang a few nursery rhymes that my mom used to sing to me to help me stay asleep.

Before Ginger had left she gave Mackenzie a check and what she found had me deeply concerned, she found that Mackenzie was extremely underweight for her age and she had a few deep cuts to her upper torso and on her back, I swear if I ever find out who caused those scars I will castrate them with my bare hands.

Eventually I fell asleep myself in the nursery with my son and grandbaby.