Behind closed doors

Chapter 11 / beach day

Trigger warnings?:

Karl pov:

I woke up around an hour ago and now I was in my room lost in thoughts, I didn't wake Nick when I woke up since I wanted to let him sleep.

I sat with my arms crossed and my head facing the wall infront of me, if I'm honest I didn't like bullying Nick anymore sure I loved bickering with him but hurting him? It hurt me and I don't know why..

"Karl?" A tired voice called out quietly, it was 10am and since it was a Saturday we had no school, I looked up at the silhouette only to see Nick,

I nodded "something you need?" I asked, my attitude changed over the past few days with being around him and he noticed but I think he liked this new me.

"Can I come in here? I haven't got anything else to do, me parents probably went out with my sister" asked Nick, I shrugged and he walked over and sat beside me

"Nick?" He looked at me with tired eyes "do you think.. think we can start over?" I asked

Nick looked at me dumbfounded and then started to laugh like a mad person, "a-re you joking? That— that was a funny joke k-Karl!" He said between laughs but I wasn't joking, I really wanted to restart. When the male saw that I wasn't joking he immediately stopped laughing and jut stared at me,

"Your serious?" Of course I was serious. I nodded,

"Yeah- I've gotten to know you and your family and you- even though I'm a bad person you let me stay here.." my voice trailed off and suddenly arms wrapped around me

"Your not a bad person Karl.. your just misunderstood" Nick said smiling, I felt tears swell in my eyes but I blinked them away, i giggled and pulled away from nicks touch

"Do you want to go to the beach?" I asked, nicks eyes lit up and then he nodded.

— time skip to the beach —

Nick and I arrived at the beach, it was hot out so we both wore our swim shorts and shirt to the beach, we had spare clothes in the car if we wanted to change. We walked to a clear spot and put our things down. After putting our things down I turned to Nick to see him shirtless, I blushed like crazy

'God why did he have to be so attractive?'

"Karl? Are you okay? Your face is red" Nick chuckled, I nodded and kept my shirt on, it had long sleeves which didn't reveal my recent cuts or anything.

"Want to go for a swim?" Nick asked turning to me. I shuffled my feet and looked down

"I uh.. can't.." Nick must've caught on to what I was about to say because he held my hand gently and said he'd help me if I needed it. As we walked towards the water my anxiety grew more and more and to say the least, I was getting more and more scared as we got closer.

"I think this is enough" I laughed nervously, and looked down at the water that was up to my knees,

"Aw come on Karl, if you don't like it we can get out" he smiled, I looked at his smile and smiled too, it gave me reassurance which was weird but I didn't mind.

He slowly helped me into the deeper water and I quickly grabbed onto his neck, wrapping my arms around him.

"Ka-rl! I can-t breathe!" Nick choked out.

"OH! sorry.." I muttered with a laughed before listening my grip. Nick laughed too and then guided me through the water, still holding onto him.

After about 30 minutes we both got out and sat on the warm sand, it was a comfortable silence between us. I looked around for something else we could do when Nick spoke up "Karl.. are you actually friends with techno and shlatt?" He asked, I stayed quiet, of course I was friends with techno in fact we were like brothers we did everything together. But shlatt? I don't know, he can be nice to me sometimes but that's very rare, most of the time he was a dick to me and techno. He always bosses us around.

"Shlatt is a sick to me and techno" I blurted out, I didn't know what Nick would say so I just kept my eyes looking in a different direction.

"Would you like to sit with me and my friends for lunch?" The ravenette said, I looked at him and smiled

"Sure, but I don't know how techno would react to that" I added, Nick shrugged

"Well he'll just have to get used to it" he chuckled and looked back at the ocean, a gust of wind flowed through his silky hair, he looked like he was in a movie to be honest, i felt a light blush spread across my face and I looked away before Nick could see.

"S-so- do you want to go get something to eat? There's toilets over there so we can get changed?" I suggested.

"Sure" was all Nick said, we grabbed out clothes out of the back of the car and walked over to the toilets. We both got changed and then made our way over to a small restaurant, I wasn't hungry and even if I was I wouldn't eat anyway, I just wanted to see Nick eat. I cared about him a lot and didn't want to see him get hurt anymore.

We were seated near a window in the corner of the building, the waitress seemed nice too she handed us our menus and gave us her recommendations on what to eat though I wasn't going to have much. I looked at the menu on what to eat since I only wanted something small,

"Karl? Get the burger and fries and talk to me while you eat" Nick spoke up, I looked at him confused

"I-I'm not-"

"I know about your eating disorder and if you talk to me while you eat, you won't even know that your eating" Nick said with a soft smile, how could I say no to that? So I agreed. Was I going to regret this decision?

Our food arrived and I just stared at it blankly before Nick started going on about his little sister, I laughed at some things that he said about her as I ate and within minutes we stopped talking. My eyes diverted to the plate sitting infront of me and a wide smile crossed my lips. It was empty, I ate!

"See, that wasn't so bad was it? You should talk as you eat more often" Nick laughed and finished his food

"Oh shut up idiot" I muttered jokingly. After some more activities we went home, it wasn't that long of a drive but I enjoyed every moment of it.