Golden Scenery

08

Naamlimputangan ako sa sinag ng araw na tumama sa mukha ko. Umaga na naman, panibagong araw, panibagong pagsubok sa buhay ko.

Tiningnan ko ang alarm clock ko sa gilid ng table ko, it was 6:20 in the morning pero hindi ko pa gustong bumangon, baka kasi nandoon sila lahat sa baba, ayoko munang makita sila o makasabay man lang sa breakfast. Last night was still fresh for me, the pain I was feeling because of their hurtful words was still in my inside, masakit padin. Kahit na siguro may mali ako, I mean may mali talaga akong nagawa at yon ang dahilan kung bakit galit na galit si Janhae.

I sighed. I hope today is going to be kind for me, I want to rest for a while.

Last night. Last night was the best. I unconciosly smiling, thinking what happened last night. Matt was there for me, he was there for me, he gave me a warm hug, he stayed with me in the park, he brought me in the place where the city lights was clearly to be seen and lastly he treated me a dinner, he cared me last night. I was happy, he made me feel at ease for the meantime and that's enough with me and I don't know why is that.

Well, even though it was just a short period of time, I think I know his gentle side, he knew how to make people happy after the breakdowns and pain, and I don't know if he knew what he's doing, but he did a great job made me smile after bursting into tears, and that's the first time that I felt happy with a man that I just knew.

It was a different feeling, I felt like I was in my safest place, and he's with me, he is.

Naalala ko, hinatid niya ako dito sa bahay at habang papauwi, tumatawa lang kami habang nagkwekwentuhan sa mga nangyari sa'min noon. Naalala ko pa sa mga sinabi niya, hinabol daw siya ng aso at sa takot hindi niya alam nakapasok siya sa isang c.r, tawang tawa ako no'n. Nagkwentuhan lang kami hanggang sa umabot kami sa bahay, pagkapasok ko tulog na silang lahat. At nakahinga ako do'n.

I admit he was a type of person to easy get along with.

"Sir Jav, papasok kaba?" Napatigil ako nang may kumatok sa pinto. I sighed.

Ang tagal naman nilang matapos at papasok pa ako!

Tumayo na ako at lumapit sa pinto para pagbuksan si Ate Linda.

"Bakit po ate? opo papasok ho ako."

"Nagtanong kasi si kuya Ron mo na papasok ka ba daw dahil hindi kapa bumababa. At naghintay yung Mommy mo sa baba."

Napakunot ang noo ko sa sinabi niya sa huli, naghintay si Mommy sa'kin?

I really love my mom so much. Kahit na nagtatampo ako sa kanya dahil kagabi, alam kong hindi rin magtatagal 'yon, ayokong magtampo ng matagal kay mommy, at alam kong siya din.

Tumikhim muna ako bago tumango.

"Pakisabi po mag-aayos lang muna ako at bababa na."

"Sige po."

I closed the door and went to my shower room, habang naliligo ako naalala ko na naman ang nangyari kagabi.

I smiled.

Best night ever, I guess?

Nang matapos na ako sa lahat ay kinuha ko na ang phone ko sa side table, nang i-on ko ang data ay napakunot nalang ang noo ko sa dami ng messages, lowbat pala ako kahapon at hindi ko nacharge.

Napangiti naman akong mga kaibigan kong humihingi ng tawad, at magkikita-kita daw kami ngayon.

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