Betrayal

LEAVE! - Mattheo's POV

It has been a couple days, since Y/N changed my nightmare into her memory and I just kissed her goodbye in the Great Hall, before making my way to my class. 'Mr Riddle, can I see you after class?' Professor McGonagall asked me right as I was entering the classroom. I don't suppose it's good news that she wants to see me after class. I gave her a quick nod and walked over to my desk. Theo was sitting at the desk next to me and leaned over to me. 'What is that all about?' He asked me. 'I have no idea, Theo. But, I don't think she wants to tell me what an amazing student I am.' I responded with the biggest load of sarcasm I could muster up. 'Sorry for asking.' Theo responded. I wasn't mad at him for asking. Ofcourse I wasn't. I just wasn't looking forward to spending more time with Professor McGonagall than I already had to. She's not really my favourite teacher to be honest. She always favours the Gryffindors and since I'm Voldemort's son, she just puts me even further behind the Gryffindors than she does the other Slytherins. I know she went to school with my father and knows everything he has done since then, but I'm not him. And now I had to sit all through her class and then spend some more time with her, because she needed to talk to me for some reason. 

After class was dismissed, I tried to leave the classroom with the rest of the class, so I didn't have to talk to Professor McGonagall, but she stopped me dead in my tracks before I could even set one foot out of the door. 'Mr Riddle, a word?' I turned around with a fake delighted smile. 'How can I help you, professor?' 'I needed to talk to you about the Charms exam you and the rest of the class have taken last week with professor Flitwick.' 'What about it, professor?' 'You failed the exam.' She can't be serious can she? I cannot have failed the easiest exam there is in this school. 'What do you mean, professor?' 'You failed the exam. You wrongfully answered too many questions.' Is she serious? Ofcourse I know what it means to fail an exam, but how have I failed my charms exam of all the exams we have in this school. 'However, professor Flitwick would like to give you the chance of retaking the exam tomorrow afternoon after your classes,' McGonagall resumed, 'But, he's away for business right now, so you can retake the exam in my office. It's about the same material as the first exam. So, I would give you the advice to revise it again and hopefully you will pass the exam this time. Good luck, Mr. Riddle.' I gave McGonagall a nod, before walking out of the room and into the hallway. How could I have failed Charms? Of all classes, I failed at Charms? I can't believe it. What the hell is wrong with this school? I didn't even want to go here in the first place and now I have to retake an exam that is about the worst topic that they can teach you. Next to that, if any of the deatheaters find out about this, I will be the laughing stock of the century and a disgrace to my father. He will literally kill me when he finds out about this. 

I went on my way towards my dormroom to study for my exam, but I didn't get far before somebody bumped into me. I dropped all of my books on the ground because of it and looked at the person who had bumped into me. It was a fourth year Slytherin, who stumbled back a bit. 'You should look out where you're walking.' He said without looking up at who he was talking to. 'Excuse you?' I responded with a voice deeper than I normally talk. 'You should look out where you're....' And before he could finish his sentence I punched him on his jaw. He fell to the ground and looked up at me. He wanted to say something else, but once he realised who I was, he kept quiet. 'I thought so.' I said before grabbing my books and walking away. 

I walked into my dormroom and dropped my books on my desk. I sat down and grabbed the materials I needed for the charms exam. I just started rereading everything, when someone knocked on my door. I didn't answer and just kept on reading. However the person at the door was quite persistent, since they knocked again. The door then slowly opened to reveal Y/N. I seriously wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone right now and I wanted to be left alone. So, when she asked me how I was doing, I just answered curt with: 'Fine.' 'Are you okay?' 'I'm fine. Now can you leave?' 'What's wrong, Mattheo?' Y/N asked. She obviously noticed that something was going on, but I just wanted her to leave me alone. I didn't have time for niceties and to talk. 'What did I just say? Fucking leave!' 'Did I do something wrong?' 'You know what's wrong with you?!' I knew I was going to regret what I was about to say, but the words left my mouth before I could think about what I was saying. 'You're the most insecure person I have ever met and it gets so fucking annoying. So, right now, I'm starting to understand why everybody likes your sister better than you. Because, I'm starting to like her better as well.' In all of my anger, I used the one thing I knew would hurt her the most. I knew how much she hated being compared to her sister and always being seen as the nobody, while her sister is being worshipped by everybody. And to hear me say that I like her sister better as well, it broke her. I could see it in her eyes and I could read it in her mind. She was thinking how she was right all along and how Pansy, Theo, Draco and Blaise must think the same. How stupid she was for thinking her friends could ever like her better than her sister. It was the worst thing to hear her think, because none of it was true. But, I couldn't take it back anymore and I was still so angry, irritated and frustrated about the charms exam, I couldn't get myself to apologize to her. Which resulted in telling Y/N to leave, when she didn't say anything to me after telling her that I liked her sister better. This time she did respond. 'I don't know what happened to you today, but I... I know I don't deserve this. So, you know what, fuck you, Mattheo.' Her voice so soft, she almost whispered it. Tears were leaving her eyes, when she turned around and walked out of the door. 

'Y/N are you okay?!' I heard Theo say, once Y/N walked out of the door. 'Ask your buddy in there. Maybe he will tell you what the fuck is wrong with him today, because I'm not going to try to find out anymore. He can fuck off.' Her angry words tainted with sadness and I was the cause of it. I heard her footsteps go further and further, while Theo's came closer and closer. 'WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO TO HER?!' Theo screamed at me after throwing the door closed behind him. 'Nothing.' I responded curt. I knew exactly what I had done. 'NOTHING?! Y/N just told you to fuck off. We both know how much she cares about you and she still told you to fuck off. You must have done something to deserve that.' He was right. She does care a lot about me and I did deserve to be told off by her for what I did. But, I couldn't tell Theo that, because he would get even angrier than he already is (for good reason), so I kept quiet. 'Start talking or I'll make you talk.' Theo said between gritted teeth. I know a threat, when I hear one. And if Theo is threatening me to make me tell him what I did to Y/N, he is serious. Theo has only threatened a handful of people around me and every time the other person didn't listen, they were soon made to regret it. So, I told him what happened. 'I told her that she's the most insecure person I've ever met, that I'm starting to understand why everyone likes her sister better and that I'm starting to like her better as well.' I had just finished my sentence when I felt hard knuckles hit my jaw. I rubbed my hand over the soon-to-be blue spot on my jaw, where Theo just punched me, while looking up at him. 'What the fuck is wrong with you?! I know she's just another task of your father to you, but she's not to me and she sure as hell doesn't fucking deserve that shit you told her.' 'Theo, shut up! Someone will hear you screaming and no one can know about my father. And just for your information; I know that she doesn't deserve that shit.' 'Then why the fuck would you say that to her? Because, and I kinda don't want to tell you this, but I think you just lost her.' 'I had a fucked up day, okay? But, I'll fix it.' 'How the hell do you plan on fixing this, Mattheo?' 'I'll just apologize and say I didn't mean it.' I know, it's a terrible plan and I'm not even sure it'll work, but it's the best I can give Theo right now. 'Did you mean what you said, Mattheo?' 'No, ofcourse not! Y/N's sister is a fucking bitch and Y/N is not, at all. She's sweet and caring and she doesn't deserve my shitty attitude. She just cares too much about me and I don't deserve that.' I think that's the first truly real thing I've said to Theo in a while. 'Why don't you?' 'You know why, Theo. All I've been doing is to try to get her to my father's side. And I want to stop. I have been wanting to stop for weeks, but we both know I can't. She's too good for him... and me...' 'You like this girl, don't you?' Maybe I do like Y/N. But I can't, can I. Ofcourse, she's beautiful, smart, sweet and caring. But, she's just a task for my father. We would never work for real, we couldn't, right? Eventhough I wish we could, I know we can't. 'You do.' Theo added when I didn't respond to his question. 'I... I guess so. However, that doesn't change a thing. My father will still want her on his side or he wants her dead. No matter if I like her or not. So, even if I did like her, I still need to get her on my father's side and once she finds out that that's what I've been trying to do, everything between us will be over.' 'You have to tell her the truth, Mattheo.' 'I can't Theo. She will hate me when I tell her the truth. And then will I not only have lost her emotionally, but she will also be murdered by my father, because she will never join his side then.' As much as I would like to tell Y/N the whole truth, I wasn't lying to Theo. It wouldn't change a thing, except for me losing her even more, than I did today. The only thing I can do, is apologize and hope she will forgive me, so we can go back to how we were and I can go back to persuading her towards my father's side. That's the only way I can keep her safe.