MANAN____BEST FRIENDS

PART 74

After a day nandini went inside the engineering department nd saw abhi instructing the workers
NANDINI: "mister abhimanyu send the workers nd start the construction today"
ABHI: "but they.."
NANDINI: "I've sorted everything out no more hurdles" she said nd he got happy
ABHI: "but how did you do it?"
NANDINI: "itni to business seekh li hai" She smiled at winked at him nd goes towards the workers explaining them when abhi asked john
ABHI: "how? What did she do?"
JOHN: "just did research on him nd his son nd got to know about the  illegal things they've been doing nd threatened them nd they back off immediately bcz it would destroy their career nd reputation"
ABHI: "she threatened that politician??? You can't be serious"
JOHN: "went inside his house threatened him showed him the proofs nd their lawyer asked them to back off otherwise it would be harm their career"
ABHI: "woahhh I feel so proud of her" he said looking at her who was instructing the workers
CABIR: "kis pe proud feel krrha hai??"
ABHI: "hamari C.E.O pe"
CABIR: "wo q?"
Abhi told him everything nd he was surprised too
CABIR: "its feels good to see her strong nd handle everything on her own but I've always loved to pamper her"
ABHI: "wakt or halat insan ko ktna badal dety hain pehlay to choti choti chezon sy dar jati thi or hamary pass ati thi roti thi zid krti thi or aj itni bari prblms akele solve kr leti hai"
They talked for sometime nd went back on doing their works also called manik nd told them bcz he was worried for her

Nandini completed her work nd went back home nd saw manik sitting in the living room
NANDINI: "what r you doing here? Nd how did you come in??"
She said coming towards him
MANIK: "I wanted to meet you wo kya hai na you're very rude in office"
NANDINI: "I'm nd I'll be rude here too so stop coming behind me"
MANIK: "itni asani sy to nai janay dunga" she was going nd he held her wrist
NANDINI: "why do you do this always?"
MANIK: "why are you always in a hurry"
NANDINI: "bcz I don't have time nd I don't want anyone near me" she said nd sat on the chair
MANIK: "can we take a beak?"
NANDINI: "break?"
MANIK: "I'm tired nandini I'm just so tired just sit with me nd talk your heart out like the old times as a friend"
Before she could deny
MANIK: "pleasee" he said nd she couldn't say no
NANDINI: "move to the garden I'll make coffee for us" she said ne he smiled at her nd went while she made coffee for both of them nd moved to the garden he was sitting on the grass nd she went nd sat on the chair
NANDINI: "can I ask you something?" He nodded "why do you think you love me?"
MANIK: "you know the day you left from there cabir took me to harshad's house nd( he told the entire story) after that I was just so helpless I didn't knew how to make everything alright how to find you where to find you I wanted you but I realized what a blundet I've done I felt stupid I felt  disgusting I felt like the worst person on earth the we read your diary everyone was in tears no one could have lived with me if they didn't read your letter after reading it also everyone was mad at me no body talked properly we all used to miss you everyday...and i wasn't mad at all for this behaviour of them bcz I knew I deserve it I deserve worse I couldn't sleep I couldn't stay up everything reminded me of you nd from that day I knew I'm not good for you I don't deserve you I just started loving you a love that just wants the other person to be happy to see the other smiling that wants the person to be happy that was all nd I've learnt it from you only the more Ioved you the more I hated myself then I realized it's my mistake I should punish myself I wouldn't even try to forget you I used to read your diary everyday stay in your room think about our good days bad days nd every night I used to come to your room sat on the bed close my eyes nd think as if you're here nd share everything with you ask you to forgive me I died every second thinking of you remembering you crying for you just to see one glance of yours just to know where you are how you are that's it I didnt wanted you back bcz I knew I don't deserve you nd I still think the same but it's just that I know I don't deserve you nandini you deserve much more better than me but I don't know how you had the heart seeing me with someone else I just can't even think of you with anyone except me but that's again me being selfish as always I can't even think what you've been through but I promise it never was an intention I messed up things when I decided that third person to be a source of communication between us she never told me the truth she always said the thing you didn't say nd show it to me as if you said I used to bring those flowers icecreams for you I used to come to your room to see you I've texted and called you but that girl she just changed your number to another one nd I didn't even notice it she always told me the wrong thing I know I shouldn't have believed it was my fault but I want you also to know what exactly happened I asked her to ask you nd tell me if you feel for me bcz I started having some sort of feelings towards you but she just told me the opposite thing I know it's not only her who is at fault I'm the main one to be blamed but the 5 years of torture it was hell for me I myself pushed me to go through hell to remember you to remeber your laughs to remember your moments nd make myself realize what I've done hurt myself cry but don't get out of that thought of hurting you nd that was painful beleive me...nd now seeing you after 5 years I'm proud of you seeing you achieve so much being so confident brave but I also sometimes want you to share speak up not to just work like a robot speak to me at least consider me a friend speak to me I can see you're hiding something I can see you're not okay you take so many medicines you try to be emotionless but I know you still feel like crying sometimes I want you to cry nd speak you somerimes want to laugh nd behave the way you used to I want you to do everything that comes to your mind nd dont just keep it inside of you"
He said nd looked back at nandini who was just listening with teary eyes nd had a smile on face a genuine smile
NANDINI: "you know manik I never thought I would fall for you but that kiss nd dare that you did on me that just took a 360° turn in my life nd slowly the feelings increased soha made me realize I love you nd we both planned the dream proposal for you but we weren't meant to be together so we didn't but it was difficult seeing you change nd give my place to someone else I got to know after you what life is what heartbreak is how does it feels to be lonely with people around I would cry whole day nd night I wasn't just able to believe you've changed nd everytime I was being strong you people did something or the other nd I would just get shattered again for the first time in life I wished I wasn't your friend I wished I never knew you but I never ever thought of hurting you guys never thought of taking revenge I would never do such a thing manik the lack of beleive made me decide I've to go nd when I went I realized why all of you boys wanted me to not know what life is how cruel people are how much it is difficult to live I forgave you the day I went but even if trying nd trying I could not forget you I made my self beleive that some relations are okay as they are they shouldn't be changed into another best friends are meant to be best friends only having feelings nd trusting on someone to be a source of communication it never just works....so now I just believe that we were not meant to be together we weren't destined to be with each other we had to go through this face of life to understand life as how much we try life cannot be perfect whatever happened it broke us broke us apart but it made me a strong person it made me fight for me it made me think for myself it made me speak nd fight on my own which before that I used to come to you all for everything nd I'm just now done with my life manik I've experienced everything success failure happiness heartbreak love hate every feeling I've experienced nd for you I just can't even force myself to hate you nd that also does not mean I love you I don't I just dont feel for anybody anything I want each one of you to be happy thats it I'm unable to feel anything because feelings hurt manik I dont want to expect anything from anyone anymore because expectations break nd they break you too I just don't want to be close to anyone because that cannot be forgotten I just want to be as I was in these years all alone talk to people onlu for work nobody cares for me nd I didn't care for anyone just be a feelingless person....I can just be a friend to you manik thats all I can do for you nothing more than that"
She said nd looked at his face all wet from tears she wiped his tears
NANDINI: "just stop crying it gets you nothing beleive me"
Suddenly it started to rain
NANDINI: "lets go inside'
MANIK: "you don't like rain?"
NANDINI: "I hate everything I once loved" she  said gave him her hand nd they moved inside
MANIK: "nandini can I ask you for something will you give me??"
NANDINI: "first tell me then"
MANIK: "can we be like before good close friends? Please"
nandini nodded nd smiled
NANDINI: "go back it's already late"
MANIK: "my friend use to hug me every time nd not send me away"
NANDINI: "but this friend is sending you so go nd" she hesitated to hug him
MANIK: "its okay I understand" he moved to go but nandini held him nd hugged him nd when he realized he hugged her back they stayed like that for sometime hugging the hug they both wanted from the 5 years
NANDINI: "can I say that to you for the first nd last time"
MANIK: "i would want to say it too for the 2nd nd last time"
She looked at him nd realized he have said it before
NANDINI: "I LOVED YOU MANIK MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE IN THIS WORLD"
MANIK: "I LOVE YOU MORE MORE ND MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE IN LIFEE I LOVE YOUU"
Nandini went to her room nd slept on the bed manik kissed her forehead nd she looked at him in shock
MANIK: "i used to kiss my friend ok now sleep"
He closed all lights except the one dim night light
NANDINI: "manik turn it off"
MANIK: "but you don't sleep in dark"
NANDINI: "I do I love darkness now" he felt bad turning off light nd went

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