To The Moon And Back

The Marriage

I woke up early as it is the day of marriage. I wore a lavender colored lehenga with floral design on it. By the time I got ready, some of the ceremonies have already started.

We are having a good time catching up with cousins until our relatives started nagging us regarding our lives. They are more concerned about my life than theirs. I don't understand what satisfaction they get by degrading our choices in dressing style, career not to mention the life itself.

I managed to sneak out from the conversation and just sat behind my sister and brother-in-law in mandap. The interactions between them are very cute even if it is for a brief amount of time. I loved the fact that they truly like each other even though it is an arranged marriage.

The groom ties the knot and here I am feeling so emotional.

We take pictures with the married couple separately and a family photo too.

Everything is going on smoothly and everything is perfect.

It is Bidhai ceremony. My sister is crying while hugging my parents. My sister came to me and we both cried a lot for a long time, hugging each other.

After we both calmed down, our parents gave my sister's hand in hand with the groom and we bid farewell to her for the new chapter of her life.

My parents are feeling emotional so I stayed with them for a while.

Later that day, I started packing the luggage as we will return to our home tomorrow. While folding my clothes, I recapped everything that happened today and the previous days.

It is so good and sad at the same time. Because in every memory, he is there. I didn't get to speak with him today. But I managed to steal glances at him twice or thrice. He looked so good. But that's where I stopped myself. That's where I drew the line for me. Because I don't want to get my hopes up. Even though I don't tell out loud, I really hate the feeling of having my hopes up, only to be disappointed later.

So I decided and told myself very sternly that everything is over and I am ready to move on to my daily life. I packed my clothes and everything is good to go. I will be fine with some sleep and lot of work after returning to my daily routine.

I lay on the bed wishingthings would be different. But I am sure that it won't change anything in thepresent. So I carefully tucked all my thoughts and feelings away again. Becausethey only managed to make my heart heavy and my mind blur.