Missing in action

Chapter eighteen

LANDO POV:

I held onto her shoe in my hand as I watched her walk away holding our child. I was a father, I wasn't too sure how to think of it. I look down at my hands, my heart sinks. If I decide to have them in my life, it would change like I could have never imagined.

For the past few years I sometimes thought of her. Of Evy. I wondered why I woke up with the bed empty. At first I thought I imagined it. But she was too good for my imagination to make up. It hurt, I thought maybe it was bad on her end. At least I knew why she left now. 

I take a deep breath in, calming my nerves, I had just finished on a podium but with the thought of me being a father I couldn't think about it.

He looked like me too. I wanted two ask her if I could hold him, but I feared if I did I wouldn't think about if it was a good idea to be a father and just leave the formula one world to be with them. 

I loved being an uncle, it brought me so much joy watching my niece grow. Would it be the same with Theo. 

Evy still looked just as beautiful, but as a mother she looked even better. Looking down at my wrist I saw her number written on it. I grabbed my phone adding her number in. Mechanics walked past filling the area with noise. 

I spun around heading for my motor home. I needed to sit down for a bit, my head was swimming with thoughts of what I had just found out. 

I swing the door open with a bang and head over to the sofa. I pull my shirt off throwing it on the table with Evy's shoe. I didn't know what took me over when I took it from her. Fear? That if I didn't have anything of hers I might not see her again like last time. 

The door opens again whilst i'm deep in thought, looking up I see Daniel walking over, he stays silent sitting next to me. His feet kick up on the coffee table. 

"How you doing?" he asked flicking through his phone. 

"I'm not sure mate" I replied fiddling with the shoe lace of my Childs mothers shoe. 

"Wanna talk" Daniel leant forward looking over at me. 

"What should I do" I ask quietly. 

"Thats not for me to make that choice for you" he replied back.

"I really don't think i'm ready for this" I whispered, guilt racing through me. 

"I bet Evy wasn't either but it looks like she's made it work well, he seems like a great boy Lando" Daniel remarked raising a brow at me. 

"Don't look at me like that" I say crossing my arms. "But i'm always travelling so I don't even know how it would work" I told him. 

"Max is a great step dad, he makes it work and a couple of the other guys have kids" Daniel reminded me. 

"They decided to have them though, i've just found out and he's nearly three already" I sighed. 

"Well if you don't wanna be in their life I sure as hell will be, ive always thought I would be a good dad" he joked with some seriousness to his statement. 

"Don't piss me off" I thew my head back looking up at the ceiling, anger surging through me. 

"Im being serious, i'll marry both Anna and Evy and live happily every after" Daniel laughed nudging my shoulder. I picked up the closet thing to me, being the TV remote and threw it at Daniels back as he was running out of the room. Dick. 

I picked my phone up and stared at Evy's contact in my phone. My mind raced, should I text her or is it soon soon. I groaned out of frustration deciding to just text her to see if it was her number. Once the text went through I put my phone down on the sofa lost in thought.