Breaking His Concentration (Alhaitham x Kaveh)

Chapter 35: How Could You Do This to Me?

Author's Note
Okay PLEASE bare with me for this one. I KNOW it's sad but pleas please trust me lol. This one hurts to write but I loveeee the angst. I know it's painful but trust me on this one or at least try lol. Have fun reading <3

Kaveh's POV

I knew the moment he walked away from me that he would come back. He didn't need me pressuring him anymore. My words would have to be enough. He wouldn't do anything drastic like forgetting me.... right?

Alhaitham's POV

"NAHIDA!"

I roared as soon as I walked into my house, slamming the door as hard as I could behind me. I had ran home as fast as I could. If I took anymore time then I knew I would talk myself out of this. I would tell myself this was all a mistake, I would convince myself that I was better off without him. But I couldn't do that. I needed him to be alive, I needed him to be happy. And I needed to forget this ever happened.

"Dendro Archon. Please. I need you now more than ever."

I called into the room, pacing around my living room as I looked around for her. I reached my hand out to my side and clasped my fingers around my dendron vision feeling it pulse between my fingers. And so I sent a silent prayer for her, for the dendro archon. She was the only one who could accomplish what I needed. I just had to convince her.

"No need to call so loudly. This seems to be a pattern of yours."

I heard her small delicate voice behind me, I turned my back quickly to see her smiling face. She looked much happier than the last time we met, but I knew she must have known what was going on between us. She gently walked over and sat down on my couch, crossing her legs as she motioned for me to sit in the chair across from her. I sighed and did as she told, folding my hands in my lap.

"You and Kaveh really do have a beautiful house together. I'm sure he did most of the decorating, his mind says that you don't have very good decoration skills."

"Stop trying to make me feel guilty. I know you know why I called you here."

She sighed, and I watched her green eyes become laced with a bit more sadness as she looked down at the ground.

"Of course I know why you called me here. I can't not come when someone wishes for me to come this badly, but I was more than surprised by the darkness your mind held. And the request you're about to ask me for."

"I need this, Nahida. I need you to take his memories. It's the only way I can save him. If you erased all of his memories then he wouldn't want to fight for me. He wouldn't be eaten alive by the guilt of murdering Drea and he wouldn't remember how much he loved me. It would fix everything."

"Alhaitham, taking his memories would be cruel. Even though it is something you wish for, his mind says the complete opposite. He does not want to forget  you and I cannot take his memories if he does not wish it so. It would go against everything I stand for as an archon."

"What about the last time you helped me? When you helped me erase Sumeru's memories of Drea? That didn't seem like something an archon would do, yet you did it for me anyway. You can help me with this."

Her eyes narrowed as she looked at me, her eyes seemed to be losing color every second as she tried to keep them on me. I hated summoning her here, I hated making her the one to fulfill my requests because I saw how much pain it brought her. She really was a pure soul and she hated doing anything to destroy human life. I have asked too much for her in a lifetime and I hated asking for more. But I would do anything to protect Kaveh the way he needed to be protected.

"Nahida, please. I can't watch him die. Everyone dies around me. I'm going to mess up one day, I'm going to go back on our deal and end up killing someone. And I can take the consequences to that, I don't care what you do to me. But if we continue dating then the consequences will be on him too. We do crazy things for each other, we would move heaven and earth if we have to. I love him so much it hurts Nahida, I love him so much that I would kill someone who gave him a second look. He doesn't deserve that, he doesn't deserve someone who breaks him over and over because they can't deal with themselves."