Love in Bali

2 - Mistake

Mile

What have i done, i should control myself. I look at him who sleep with bruise and marked body. This is big mistake. I look at my phone which keep ringing since last 15 minute.  I know my team will be really angry with me.
I will go to airport directly. I will see all of you there i answer the phone and end our conversation. I hurrily run to the pharmacy and bought a few medicine for him. I have my flight today for our world tour.

"I am sorry, i have to leave. Call me when you are awake. Take care of yourself. We will talk later. "

I carefully leave a note below his phone. I also prepare a water and pain killer for him. I dont know why, but i kiss his head before i leave. I felt really guilty but i really in hurry.

Where have you been, apo yelled at me when he see me running to the team.
Sorry i said and take my bag from him.
What are you doing he ask me again. Not now apo i said because i am so guilty and worry about him.
I hold my phone tightly.
During our flight i cant sleep a pinch. What wrong apo ask me again. I am a bit annoy when he pretend like my partner. Nothing i reply. You cant lie to me he said. Please apo leave me alone i said a bit cold and close my eyes. I really dont want to talk now.

I really cant focus on my concert. I wait for his call but since yesterday he did not  contact me. How is he now i ask myself. I still cant believe that we really do it. I still remember how he cry and moan below me. I must be crazy. I cant believe i let alcohol control us. I try to call him but it was voice mail.  I know something must he wrong. He wont drunk himself in foreign land alone.
After our concert normally we enjoy our short stay but i excuse myself and wait for him in my room. I refuse apo offer to accompany me. I need to be alone.

I never felt like this. I am so happy when we arrive at my country. You must he missing home so much bible said when he see i am so eager to leave the team.  Who is waiting for you pete tease me. I ignore all their teasing and run to my driver. Mile, apo call me, but i really dont care and keep running.
Lets go to siam i immediately instruct my driver. I cant wait to see him. We need to talk. I am happy when his company announce his schedule yesterday. I am planning to go back to bali because after s few days i still dont received any news about him.
Luckily i see the announcement and go back to thailand with my team.

He look pale and not breathing when he see me. He try to avoid me. I politely greet his manager and nod to win.
Both of them look at me strangely.
I walk straight to him. We need to talk i said slowly. He look at his team and immediate wai to me. Follow me he said and walk to distance ourself with others. What are you doing here he ask me panickly. Relax i try to cool him down.  How are you i ask him. I am fine, you should go he said desprately.  Bright we need to talk i said. No need its a mistake. I wont blame you. Just forget about it he said firmly. I cant believe what i heard. Its happen and we cant act like its not i said calmly. Its already done, nothing we can do. I will treat is a one night stand and i hope you too he said while looking into my eyes. We should, no he interupt me. Nothing happen, it end there. He said firmly. Please let it go he beg and leave me alone.  I only can look how he walk to his team and win immediately walk to him. Oh my god i must be crazy. I know he is with metawin. What am i expecting from him. Actually i felt guilty and  try to fix the situation, but i really forgot about metawin. I should not come, it will bring another problem to him. I finally walk to my car and ask my driver to drive me home. I felt so tired and suddenly felt i miss something. I hope both of them will be okay.  I never mean to be third party.

Since that day, i only know his news thru media. He never call or reply to my note.
He really treat our story at bali as a mistake. I cant blame him. He is protecting what he have now and i am the mistake that he wish to erase.
Its somehow felt hurt when he pretend he dont know me when we meet at any event. I try to forget him but i still clearly remember how he look so sad and i really want to know what make him that hurt. May be i am halucinating, but i can see he is not happy even he pretend to be happy with his fans well. I always worry when he dissapear from media when he have no schedule. I keep imagine he bring himself somewhere and getting drunk alone. 
I felt i am responsible to him. I wish he at least give me a chance to be his friend not treating me like i dont exist.
My pride cant allow him to treat me like this.  I will go to him if he refuse to come.
I will try to be his friend and help him. I dont need anything from him, i just need him to be happy.