Love in Bali

5 - why

Bright

I cant say a word. I just sit beside phi mile silently. Why it must be him again. I dont know what are god plan is. Why when i am at my worst he always there looking at me. I try my best to forget all the shameful story that we share. I felt i need to run from him but he calmly drive to somewhere.
Are you ok he ask me. I just keep quiet refuse to answer. He can see how i look now. I and metawin are the most popular couple and the most ideal couple everyone think. Even we dont have fan service but still our company play a big role in this couple thing. I sometime felt being used by them. Even win happily use our status for his sale and family business. I really dont care about that. I dont know why we need to do this. Honestly i never do fan service and clingy to win after we break up. I try to respect their relation and keep myself away from them. I already give back all metawin cloths from my house. We never be alone since we break up. What i need to do to show that i wont get involve in their relation. I try my best to be invisible. Beside our jobs, we never meet each other. How could they accuse me like that. I angrily ask myself. Without my knowlegde my tears flowed. I look at phi mile when i heard he close his door.
Its realy shameful but i cant stop crying. I am thankful for him for leaving me alone. He just stand beside his car, giving me a space that i need now. I wish they also respect me a bit like phi mile. Win always accuse me for blaming him. He always thought i am not forgiving him. I am the one who left behind, i am the one who cheated on why they treat like i am the culprit that bring all this unfortunate event. Not a day after we break up they leave me alone. At first i thought because they felt guilty but now i dont know anymore.

I look at phi mile who knock my window. He smile and signal me to get out. I try to tidy myself before i open the door. We need to eat he said then i notice now we are at beautiful restaurant near the see. I am not hungry i said. Can you accompany me, i am really hungry he said seriously. I smile look at his behaviour. I finally nod and he gently lead the way. I look at the menu prepared by the chef. I look at him and he casually said. Its not hard to know bright the star favorite food. I just need to check on twitter he said. Again i smile to him. You know what he suddenly said. I look at him. Smile suit you better he said and start serving the food. I am shock but look how casual he act i just keep silent. He must be really hungry, most of the food finish by him. I only eat when he put in my plate. I really dont have appetite. After our late dinner we walk to the car. Can we walk before go home he ask me. I look at beautiful beach and nod. It was a peaceful walk. He dont ask anything. He just being there for me. I felt a bit relieved. Are you tired he ask me again. I shook my head. We can sit if you want he said. No i said slowly. I cant let his expensive cloth dirty. Like he can read my mind he modestly sit on the sand. He patted the sand hinted me to sit.
Its still a silent moment. I felt so comfortable and grateful for this moment. Are you ready to go home he ask me after a while. I look at him softly. Why dont you ask phi i ask him. He just smile, you will tell me when you are ready he said while caress my hair gently. Lets go he said and reach out to help me get up. Again we walk silently to his car. Where do you want to go he ask me. I dont want to go home. You can drop me at any hotel i said. My house is always open for you he said. No, i cant i said slowly. I insist he said. Please drop me at any hotel, i dont want to be your burden again. I think i owe you a lot phi i said and he just nod and stop pushing it.

Thank you i said when he drop me at the lobby hotel. Bright he called me. I look into his eyes. I still use the same number, you can call me anytime he said while looking at me softly. I nod and wai to him before i go into the hotel.
After check in i lay on my bed and start messaging my manager. I ask him to pick me up tomorrow afternoon. I can see miscall from win and a message from him. But i really dont want to talk with him. I put my phone under my pillow and take a shower. I have a long day. I need to soak in warm water. Before i sleep i open my wallet and look for phi mile number. Nearly after a year i finally save his number as guardian angel. Its like my secret way for me to save my friends name like this because i am worry if i lost my phone. I look at win number and touch edit button. Good bye forever. I change his name to my friend. It was the name he save himself. I put my phone down back and sleep.