𝑇𝑤𝑜 𝐹𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑠 𝐶𝑟𝑜𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑑

10- 𝐇𝐞𝐫 𝑓𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝐛𝐨𝐲𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝

She fainted in my arms.

And I never thought of this happening.
I thought she'll laugh it off like usual and say "deal!" But..

Maybe I made a mistake.
Does love really hurt a person to this extent?

I took her home, not knowing what to do.

I know what is coming for me. All the hate and comments and a storm in my life.
But you know why? Why did I invite this myself?
Because everyone thinking they own you gets suffocating at one point.
I was scared, that in this mess I wouldn't ever find a person of my own.

So I thought maybe I can just stay in peace if people think I'm someone else's.

But didn't want to hurt her. It just turned out horribly wrong. I wanted to ask for a favour but maybe I ended up playing with her feelings...

Laying her down on the bed, I waited.
I didn't try to wake her up..

I went out in the living room and sat down.
In thoughts of her possible reactions.

Will she leave me? Will she get angry on me? How should I apologise?
Will she be ok?

My thoughts were broken by the sound of faint footsteps nearing me.
Eira's hairs are messed up, her eyes are red and she doesn't look well.
My heart breaks after seeing her like this.

I went near her.
Looking straight into her eyes, ready to apologise, I said-
"I am-" but I was cut off by her,
E- I'll do it.
"What? No! You don't have to. It's my fault.. I did this stupid thing and I will take care of it! Please don't-"
E- I want to! I want to do this! I don't want to live like this! Weak and fragile- I hate being like this! I don't want to.. be stuck there.. I want to.. be loved too. Even if it is fake.

Her words took time to register in my head.
Before I could fully process it, I was hugging her. So tight like my life depends on it.
And she hugged me back too.
I held her as she cried her heart out.

"You can be weak and fragile in front of me.."

Her sobs seemed to have slowly reduced.
I took her to the room again and made her rest, making sure to apologise again.

E- "Jungkook.. you don't have to be so sorry, I understand you. Everybody wants to be loved"
Do I deserve to be loved?
Do I really want to be loved too? 

I let a tear escape but she wiped it away.
Putting forward her hand she said-
E- will you be my fake boyfriend?
I smiled and took her hand.
"It would be an honour"
We both chuckled and then I left to sleep.

This actually feels too real..