I hate it.
I hate how he makes me feel.
I hate how he makes me happy.
I hate how he makes me excited
I hate how he makes me feel so incredibly stupid
I hate how much I want him yet I know I can't have him.
I hate it I hate it I hate it.
I want to let go
But each and every time I try and try he pulls back and makes my heart happy
It's the little things
The things I believe are invisible
The things I know he is just being kind
I hate it I hate it so much
One moment we like eachother
The next nothing happened
Life moved on and so should I
But I hate how much my heart aches for him.
I want it to stop I want it to stop so badly
But I know deep down even if it's hurting me ill stay
Not just for him
For her, my best friend I love her so much
And I hate myself for feeling this shit
She deserves the world not me
As does he.
I am greedy
Once I get to much of the same thing I want it
More and more and more
But when it stops
I'll be there shocked and I will ignore it
I will ignore it
And I will ignore it
But when the times come it'll tear me apart
Because it is not only her and him it is their family.
Everyone is so amazing, they're not perfect
But they are them.
And I hate it because I know in the end I will not be able to leave them.
But I know they'll leave me in the end.
