When you first called my heart fluttered.
I joked around a couple of times, telling you to make the first move.
You did.
You called.
You talked.
You asked me out.
And you broke my heart.
Why?
I just wonder why?
Honestly it hurt the first couple of hours.
But now I just wonder why?
You blame it on Long distance.
You say it's not me.
You say I don't deserve what he's done to me.
But he hasn't done anything?
He was just here for a moment now he's gone
He was in my life for a bit
But I've lived without him before
And I can live without him again.
I'll miss it though.
The late night calls.
The laughs.
The flirting.
The unhappy moments.
Everything.
But I know I can get it again.
You broke my heart
But not for long.
I fought for you
And I regret it.
Because honestly now I feel so stupid
Because you don't want me
And I wanted you even while you didn't
But now I don't want you anymore
I'm not a toy, and I won't be used like one
So my heart is fine
It's my head that isn't
I'm alone
But I'm not
When the night hits
I don't enjoy it anymore
I wanna share laughs
And that is why I miss you.
For making me smile when I felt sad
But you aren't special because everyone can make someone smile.
But thank you for helping me learn.
Thank you for making my heart yearn for you.
Even if it was for a second.
My heart thanks you for helping it feel something.
