Icarus Rose [TRANSLATION]

Chapter Fifty Five

I want to see you. I need to see you. After all these years I was finally hoping that you would come back to me. And even though I'm fully aware that our relationship wasn't the best, and it was all my damn fault, something inside me still wanted you back. Maybe it was the thought that you were happy now, and it wasn't with me.

The thought that now you had an alpha who made you happy.

And I was still here, alone.

I never wanted to hurt you Hazz, I know you'll never know because I'll never have the guts to say it out loud, but I didn't want to hurt you, and although it's hard to believe, after losing you I lost the direction of my life, I no longer wanted to escape to the houses that I had told you about, I no longer wanted to have a family and I no longer wanted to have a job in my father's firm, I wanted more... I wanted you.

Attending that wedding was not in the plans, I had to leave London as soon as Charles' instructions were done and the plan was in place, but knowing that you would be there, knowing that I could see your eyes and hear you again was enough to disobey Tomlinson's orders..

After that warm conversation with you and your alpha I had to leave, I know who he is and I know what they do, and no, I'm not afraid of them, but seeing you there, with your pregnancy and with your family living with him like you never did with me broke my heart, my soul. I walked the streets of the city alone, I had no protection with me because if I took someone Charles and Edmund would know that I was disobeying them and I couldn't risk them hurting you; I was as lonely as I felt. Everything was dark, curiously dark in fact.

I could feel several footsteps behind me stopping every so often, they were following me. Louis had said he'd talk to me later, but it hadn't really mattered, I had hoped to be out of town before he started looking for me, but I hadn't taken into account that he's a Tomlinson, and they usually want things done as soon as possible.

"If they're going to follow me you should at least be two metres away so I don't notice you," I said as I stopped to get a cigarette, I had started smoking after you left, as a defence mechanism or maybe some kind of addiction that helped me fill the void or just another reason for my father to hate me.

I kept walking and the footsteps started to get faster, maybe I would die tonight, or maybe, and if I was lucky, they would use me as some kind of message and let me live, and maybe that would help me change, to leave the dirty business and do something good, I could move to america, change my name and start a family.

And then it all went black.

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Harry did not agree to go to the hotel room where they were staying until long after midnight, when the newlyweds were already saying goodbye to go on their honeymoon. Some people stayed to enjoy the party a little more even without the couple, but the curly one was already tired and even a little sore.

Louis helped him change, delicately removing each piece of clothing and sliding his extremities into the pyjamas that his omega had chosen for that night, a t-shirt from his alpha because, according to the curly, he and his puppy were constantly comforted by the smell of Louis, and that was demonstrated every night, as he rested his head on the alpha's chest and allowed himself to be covered by the scent and heat of the blue-eyed man.

"Lou?" The omega called in a whisper as he caressed his alpha's chest.

"What's up, bear?" Despite the darkness of the night, Louis managed to notice that smile on his omega's face and it didn't take him long to know exactly what he wanted.