Shy

chapter 14

I sat in the bathroom sobbing I don't know why it hurts so bad but it does it feels like someone pushed a knife into my stomach and is turning it slowly it fucken hurts I covered my face with my hands to try and be quite and calm down but I can't

"Come here baby" I heard Jimins voice but I ignored him "babe" he said taking my hands from my face before pulling me up slowly he picked me up and carried me to the bed I slowly stoped crying

"We shouldn't be doing this Jimin" I said in-between my sobs as he pulls me into his chest and holding me tightly "I'm allowed to hold you babe" he whispered and kissed my head

I hid my face in his chest "stop crying babe, nothing changed between us" he said pulling me closer to him he smelled good he used the musk perfume I got him last week I knew it would smell good on him

"Babe" I heard him and I lifted my head a bit only for our lips to touch not brushing like before our lips were against eachothers we froze staring at eachother my lips started to tremble and  burn under his touch

I pushed my head back into his chest "sorry" I whispered to him and he kissed my head again "for what?" He asked and I was to scared to look at him again "for what just happened" I said and pulled him closer without thinking

I quickly let go of him and covered myself completely "sorry" I mumbled under my breath I loved being that close to him but he is dating my best friend I can't get in her way.

"Y/n stop doing that" Jimin said pulling the blankets off of me I looked at him not knowing what to say "if I want to hold you I will if you want to hold me you will, if I want to kiss you I will no one will stop me, if I want to be close to you I will, I don't care what people think, if I want to be next to you I will" he said pulling me onto his lap

"I miss this babe, I know it's only been a day, but I miss this, being this close to you makes me happy, having you in my arms is the only reason I can sleep, I need you" he said and I looked at my hands shaking

"You miss this too" he said wiping a tear off my cheek "you can't say you don't miss my touch or me holding you, or me driving you nuts when I act like I'm about to kiss you only to not" he said taking my hands in his to try and calm them down

He is right I do "but Lilly" I whispered looking at our hands they fit perfectly I smiled at the scene "I'll figure something out babe" he whispered lifting my chin to look at him I nodded and laid my head in his neck

I don't want to do this to Lilly but she knew I liked him and she decided to date him anyways and I do miss him I pulled him closer to me to hug him tightly

"Babe?" I heard Jimin "yeah" I whispered into his neck "did you miss me that much?" He asked and I realized I've been kissing his neck I smiled into his neck and nodded

"Let's try and get some sleep?" I said as I got off him and laid down facing him he smiled at me and laid down pulling me into his chest I love this feeling it feels so warm

"Have you kissed her?" I asked almost whispering "no" he said under his breath and I smiled "stop thinking of her please" he asked playing with my hair and I nodded

I'll try but it might be hard she is my best friend and I'm in bed holding her boyfriend and I'm pretty sure she told me they kissed this is wrong I shouldn't be doing this "Jimin I can't" I said and sat up he looked at me and sigh before closing his eyes again

"Sorry" I whispered looking at him he ignored me I guess he is annoyed with me, I don't blame him I would be too he opened his eyes and stared at the ceiling I looked away and sigh

"Why do you feel guilty?" He asked and I lowered my head "she is my friend" I whispered I felt bad for being in the same room as him Lilly must be so upset about this

I took my phone and unlocked my screen I saw the photo of me and Jimin again and I looked at it for a few seconds I heard him sigh I looked at him and saw he saw I was looking at our photo I closed it I can't get distracted now

'Lilly, are you mad at me?'     -y/n

I stared at my phone and saw she came online a few seconds after I messaged her but she didn't read my message I heard Jimins phone get a message he looked at his phone and sigh before typing

I looked at my phone and saw she never read my message I locked my phone and walked to his closet I got a few blankets

"My dad will lock us in here another day if you do that" he said looking at me I ignored him and made myself a bed next to his bed I took my phone and decided I want to go through my Instagram a bit to distract myself

*Suggested account* I got a Instagram notification I opened the account and looked through it it looked normal until I opened a post "omg" I almost yelled covering my mouth

"What?" Jimin asked calm the post was uploaded a few minutes ago it was a photo of Jungkook and Lilly in bed cuddling is she and Jimin fighting or something

"Jimin no" I yelled as he grabbed my phone out of my hand he stared at the screen but he didn't look surprised he typed something on my phone and I decided not to tell him to not get involved

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