Shy

chapter 21

"y/n?" I heard someone call for me I woke up and switched the tv off before walking to the door I opened the door and Jimin I looked at him feeling confused "Jimin? what are you doing here?" I asked him and he walked past me to see I've been sleeping on the couch he looked at me and rolled his eyes I was still confused so I did not react 

he sat down and switched the tv on "do you want something to drink?" I asked him as he flicked through the channels on the tv "coffee please" he asked without looking at me I nodded and walked into the kitchen I might need something stronger I thought to myself as I switched the kettle on I looked in my mom's alcohol drawer and took out het vodka I took a few sips of it and the strong clean alcohol burned my through

"what happened?" Jimin asked rushing in to the kitchen when he heard me choke on the strong alcohol he took the bottle from me and shook his head "how much did you have?" he asked sounding angry "a few sips Jimin" I said turning my back to him "have you ever had alcohol before?" he asked and I shook my head "are you stupid?" he asked and I felt my eyes tearing up I turned to face him 

"yes Jimin I am, I am fucking stupid for falling in love with you, I am fucking stupid for having sex with you, I an fucking stupid for being willing to give up everything my mom taught me I am fucking stupid for playing into your games without seeing your intentions, I am fucking stupid to believe you actually fell in love with me, but the one discission I did not fuck up was drinking for the first time" I yelled at him he just rolled his eyes and went back to the living room 

I finished his coffee and took it to him before walking to the kitchen to get more alcohol "y/n no" Jimin said as I sat back down "your not my dad" I said rolling my eyes "y/n, do you really expect me to believe you fell in love with me?, you're not normal you don't feel stuff like we do" he asked looking at me my mouth fell open 

"excuse me?" I asked him just to make sure I heard right "you are programmed to eat sleep and study" he said with a smirk on his face he is really enjoying this "Jimin I did fall in love with you I Focken still am, yes 90% of my fucken live revolves around study that does not mean I'm not capable of feelings" I yelled at him and walked to my front door "get out" I said and I felt tears escaping my eyes 

"no" Jimin said standing up walking towards me "Jimin my mom warned me not to get feeling because all that the male specie is good at is playing games, you played me so Focken well I was willing to tell my mom to fucking back off when she got back, I was willing to demand some freedom just to be with you, I was willing to get beaten up by her just to be with you, I was ready to fucking lose everything Jimin once again just for you" I yelled at him and pushed him back repeatedly 

"I was willing to give up my fucking future for you and the worst part is I still am willing to lose everything for you" I yelled at him he grabbed my wrist and pulled me into his chest he held me tightly to try and calm me down "why did you do it?" I asked as I felt a bit calmer he has a way of calming me down easily 

"I don't know" he answered me I let out a sigh before speaking "you know it is ironic, the first guy I fell for ended breaking me more than my mom" I said pushing him away from me and sitting on the sofa "I don't know what to say, apologizing wont be enough" he said walking over to I lifted my legs on to the sofa and brought it closer to my knees 

"I don't want you to say anything Jimin" I said letting my head fall back Jimin sat next to me and we were quiet for a while "can I at least try to fix it?" he asked and I looked at him with a blank expression "no Jimin you cant, and you know what that is okay, we can pretend that everything is fine between us in front of your parents they don't have to know" I explained looking at the tv again 

"don't you think pretending for two months will be hard?" he asked with his eyes full of tears I looked at him biting my lip to help distract me not to comfort him "Jimin you need to go home now" I said standing up he looked at me a bit confused but he got up and walked to the door 

just before he walked out I grabbed his arm and pulled him towards me I cupped his face and I pulled him in for a kiss he did not hesitate he grabbed my waist and pulled me closer to him kissing me back I broke the kiss and hugged him "Jimin, it is over" I said into his chest to try and hide my tears I did not want to end it but I had to "but why?" he asked pulling me away from him and searching my face 

"my mom will be back in a week" I said and he took a step back from me "what?" he asked again "she phoned me, she is coming back earlier, but this is a good thing Jimin" I said without thinking he looked at me and I saw a tear escape his eye "really? because you don't sound convinced" he said walking away I let out a sigh and closed the door before going back inside

Jimin and I rarely saw each other for the rest of the week he was always out with his friends again and I well I distracted myself with my studies the only time we saw each other was at school but we did not talk and we did not get to close to each other as well and as predicted the both of us was sleep deprived I ended up buying a new teddy bear to cuddle with it helped a bit not much but what can I say 

Lilly and I did not speak after the last call we had and me finding out everyone knew about the deal well lets just say I kept a save distance from everyone

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