I cannot write the poem
that is hidden in my heart
Because it hurts so much
I don't know how to start
Sometimes I do not notice
the pain inside my chest
And sometimes I feel ridiculed
even when I've tried my best
My head feels like it's empty
cause it's busy running laps
To keep my brain from remembering
the olden, over-worn maps
Yet sometimes I am drowning
feeling weighed down by tiny balls
And they are like bullets
that I must carry and hold
The bullets haven't wounded me
for my wounds have come from stabs
From ripping out pieces of my soul
that I know I can't have back
I don't want to hurt anyone
with the replacement of my soul
The bullets must hold some meaning
and yet I still cannot feel whole
Sometimes I dream of having someone
that completes my other half
That lifts the weight of emptiness
that has numbed my past
I dream that I won't be crippled
when I meet this someone new
But I know I won't ever meet them
when I don't ever live the truth
I only want to escape
the power of my mind
That wants me to scream at people
who've only ever been kind
But my mind turns them to horror
inside the evil villainous lair
That will come and stab me
with their empty glare
They've just up and left me
because I'm not a good friend
But I'm scared to express I'm drowning
in the situation I'm in
Yet I don't know where to begin
I don't know how to start
Because I don't know what has happened
I don't know what's real or not
My hours are spent trying
to not break down in unfair tears
I'm storing them in a dam
built of iron and unreasonable fears
As you can see
this is all unhealthy
But I feel like I've not the time
to carefully unbuild this tower
That is the prison of my life
~RememberThoseDreams
btw readers, if you can come up with a better title for this one I'm open to suggestions because I'm really stuck lol
JE LEEST
Raw Emotion Poems
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