Mellifluent

WHY

Its been a few days now...
and I still can't find 'just why?'
you say that reason why you're here
isn't me but some other guy.

Im sorry if it hurts you,
But I dont wanna end up like that again...
Maybe Im just being 'too much'
As you said, but its honestly the pain.

The pain of you being here again,
Not for me, not for us. For the other.
Am I that forgettable? am I that useless?
You leave when you're done...
Am I that big of a bother?

I ask, 'aftr years, is he the only reason?'
Like a slow poison came your replies,
"Just wanted you to know''
'Did I ever ask?' whispered my eyes.

But of course, you didnt see!
For you were sleepy.. who cares abt the sight.
But guess who else is feeling dead?
Me. Cause Im still not alright. 

You think a sorry fixes this..?
Well then you are naive, aren't you?
Cause even if wood might grow joint again,
a remedy isnt something, that'd connect us anew. 

So take your apology. 
And leave right now, right here.
Dont even think of turning back,
stay away. Dont even try to come near.

And if this doesn't teach you; 
To leave for once and last,
I'll say this, for your pleasure.
"fuck off of here. And do it fast."

Im officially unhinged.